::hey hey YOU!::

the urge to write stroke me again. finally. being idle for more than 2 weeks i guess. thank you to people who gave me an inspiration to write.

have you ever experienced of being condemned with association to something that is totally out of nowhere?

once? twice? few times?for me, many times.

"nama ja belajar overseas. ini pun x tau?"

"tahu lah bijak. budak overseas la katakan"

"belajar overseas, cara cakap tawau pun lupa"

how these made me feel? sux!

i mean, i did mistakes but why people made such a big issue of me being studying overseas? can you just relate my mistakes to something that is relevant like:

"oo bodohnya kamu ini."

"lain kali baca banyak-banyak artikel buka pemikiran tu sikit"

"praktis bahasa tawau kamu hari-hari supaya tidak lupa daratan"

these are better because i know, the problem is rooted in me, not because im an overseas student.

pardon my stupidity or mistakes. please do show me the right way if you don't mind. with that i'll learn. you are not taking me anywhere by condemning me.

and people, being here is not something that im proud of till i wanna show off and tell the whole wide world! like, there are thousands of overseas students out there. it's NOT something unusual.

overseas students are no better than other students. the only difference is, the place where we get the knowledge. i bet local students are better in terms of knowledge acquisition because they learn more than we us do.full stop.

buanglah kedangkalan itu jauh-jauh, lemparkan! nescaya kamu melihat dunia dengan lebih luas. dan jika kamu masih berdegil dan ingin terus mengutuk, silakan. kerana aku tahu apa yang aku lakukan.

yang puas kena condemned,

jamieY

::selamat hari raya korban::

0730: bangkit dari pembaringan

0810: solat subuh. aku sayang dublin. subuh habis jam 820 am = extra sleep.

0830: bersiap-siap ke kelas. mengenakan baju kurung hitam bunga-bunga ungu dan tudung kelabu. bimbang Dr Hill akan memberi lecture. justeru, harus mengambil langkah berjaga2 dengan memakai warna yang suram agar tidak menarik perhatian beliau. bijak!

0900: catched the bus to beaumont hospital with syam kerana hujan. hujan lebat.

0915: tiba di hospital. hujan telah reda. terbazir euro 1.05 aku.

0920: book tempat duduk di barisan hadapan sekali. satu lagi trick supaya tidak menarik perhatian Dr Hill.

0925: sembahyang idul adha di surau beaumont. agak berbeza cara imam tersebut mengendalikan solat yang membuatkan aku tertanya-tanya ketika solat. ya kurang khusyuk. khutbah dalam bahasa arab. dapat tangkap beberapa perkataan sahaja. loser kerana tidak mendalami bahasa arab sebelum ini. kemudian khutbah dalam bahasa inggeris. nasib baik!

0940: menghadiri lecture HDS on ethical issue of genetics and public health policy. later in the afternoon, pathology of uterine and cervix. buat kesekian kalinya, tidur dalam lecture hall. bukan Dr Hill yang memberi lecture. esok. maka esok, baju hitam lagi.

1700: kelas tamat. berjalan ke tesco untuk membeli groceries.  

1800: tiba di rumah. merekodkan sejarah bila berada di rumah lebih awal dari hommies yang dua lagi.

ok that was my aidil adha went by today. nothing special. no burasak. no ayam lengkuas. no chicken overdose. no tumbuk. no tapai. no batang buruk. no kuih makmur. alhamdulillah i still got the chance to perform the celebration's morning routine: sunat idul adha. iAllah next year i'll be home and celebrate the merriment of eid with my loved ones ;)

burasak and ayam lengkuas: the most looked for during raya

called home yesterday. mom updated me on how my childhood best friend wedding prep is getting on. to maslianah mariali, congratulations! see, you are the first to get married among us. im happy for you. and byezura's wedding will be coming soon. very soon. sudah besar rupanya...

yang berhari raya di perantauan:

jamiey

::sweet like chocolate::

"u looked wonderful tonight"

"o thank you."

so everyone donned the best tux and the best dress that they have in the closet. or grabbed it from the nearest shopping mall to attend this so called "Chocolate Ball" brought to you by Carribean African Society. this annual glamorous night featuring "Passion for Fashion" in conjunction with the world's AIDS day was held to raise fund for AidAfrican Organisation, a charity body that is currently helping the African children that are suffering from AIDS.

the event started at 730pm, even-though it was scheduled at 630pm. haih sempat cair make up!

this was what i did while waiting for the reception to be opened hihi

first event was RED CARPET!

di kelilingi hawt boys :D

semerah permaidani yang terbentang ;)

then, we took our seats. we chose to sit in second row so we can have a better view of the models later. kerana itu adalah satu-satunya peluang untuk melihat rakan sekelas sendiri memperagakan baju beraneka fesyen tajaan dundrum, kami tidak ragu untuk berada di hadapan sekali. o maksud saya bukan VIP seating kerana seating-seating itu telah di conquer oleh perempuan-perempuan yang super kaya bertudung hitam berbau minyak atar dan memilki wardrobe ajaib yang menghasilkan baju, kasut dan handbag branded setiap hari.

second part of the event was my favourite. makan time! :D

so we helped ourselves with the luxurious chocolate fountain. u choose what u would like to have with the silky smooth flowing chocolate: cream puff (we finished one bowl of these!), strawberries ( reminded me of datuk's wifey), toffees, pineapples, or marshmallows. so our pre-emptied stomachs were full with chocolate that night. enough said, we were truly had chocolate in our veins instead of blood! ( ok im exaggerating)

too full with the chocolates and chocolates and chocolates, the cakes failed to seduce us. so we took out seat again after the MC announced that the event was about to begin.

ballet dance.

done.

sinead cronin singing my wish for christmas.

done.

then, the most awaited event: runway divas modeling the latest design of famous brands. fully sponsored by dundrum.

at first we were so excited commenting this and that and we just could not get enough of it. well, when tyra banks met the ANTM cronies, u can expect this :D

and when the male models came out, the audience started to scream hysterically. OMG!

"macam bangla" azmi said.

"handsome lagi bangla jual kain di tempatku!" i replied.

"bagus aku yang jadi model" si perasan said.

the boys failed to make us drool over em. lol. tapi ada yang saya ingin kongsi bersama kamu. sebaik sahaja model -model lelaki itu memperagakan pakaian mereka, kelihatan sekumpulan lelaki berdiri sambil bertepuk tangan. wah sungguh gembira dan bersemangat mereka. mungkin agak pelik kerana kami golongan perempuan tidaklah begitu tertarik dengan lelaki-lelaki itu. tidak tertarik langsung barangkali. adakah kami abnormal? maka, ketahuanlah mereka itu golongan MSM ( sila google selepas ini ya?)

in the end of the show, the guy with the most unique look, some claimed he's handsome ( sorry, i beg to differ) was announced as the winner. he got contract with first choice modeling agency. cool? yeah. it was cool. 

the event ended at 10.30 pm and i rushed to catch the 11.15 bus from eden quay. walking in the city centre along o'connel street (jauh ok?), with a bright red dress matched with blood red heels was enough to make me feel like diva! ok ok minus the one degree celsius coldness. next time, i should be wearing exposing heels like this so i can feel the coldness of dublin right on my bare skin again! what a good choice jamiey!

after all, it was a night to remember. thanks to jiah, sarah, safwan and all the girls who made the event even more wonderful. last but not least, my date for the night, azmi. semangat tek beli tie? lol. thank you!

merpati tiga sejoli as he said ( merpati ketiga ialah jiah's date) :p

still craving for chocolate,

jamiey

::kebersendirian::

aku berjalan sendirian ke kelas pagi ini. tiba-tiba terdetik, aku ini jenis yang suka sendiri sebenarnya. punya pace jalan sendiri. punya masa untuk menikmati alam. punya masa untuk diri sendiri.

bukanlah itu bermaksud aku tidak suka berada di dalam kelompok rakan-rakan. i enjoy their company. i do. kebersamaan pun cantik, tetapi bergantung dengan siapakah kebersamaan itu di kongsi. 

ada perkara aku suka lakukan sendiri. contoh: shopping! sebab aku akan ambil masa yang lama (sangat lama untuk lebih tepat lagi) meneliti dan membandingkan kualiti, harga, etc. ya aku cerewet. keluar masuk tiga empat kedai pun belum tentu aku berhasil menemui apa yang aku cari, walaupun hanya sehelai t-shirt. jadi, peringatan kepada kawan2, sila jangan menjadi teman shopping aku! lagi satu, aku percaya bahawa setiap orang punya taste masing2. maka, bila shopping ramai2, di khuatiri clash of interest akan terjadi. aku ingin ke department itu, kamu ingin ke department ini. bila terjadi begini, mood shopping pun akan lari sedikit. salah siapa? salah aku sebab aku bukanlah jenis yang sabar menunggu.

satu lagi yang aku gemar lakukan sendiri ialah memasak. aku kekok bila aku sedang memasak, aku di perhatikan oleh sepasang mata lain. jika kamu rasa lauk itu TERmasin, salahkan orang yang menjenguk aku yang tengah masak :p. ingin menghulurkan bantuan dengan memotong sayur, cili, atau bawang? o sila pastikan kamu memotong dengan tertib kerana aku seorang yang perfectionist. pantang sekali lobak itu di potong tidak sama saiz. bawang putih tidak di hiris halus. ya aku sedar bahawa hakikatnya semua benda itu akan masuk ke dalam perut, di hadam dan menjadi faeces, tetapi itu pandangan kamu. i beg to differ. hasil kerja yang halus melambangkan etika kerja. secara peribadi juga, aku menggemari kerja yang teliti, maka sebelum aku mendapatkan dari orang lain, aku harus mempersembahkan terlebih dahulu. 

lagi satu, aku lebih suka bergerak ke mana2 yang memerlukan aku berurusan secara bersendirian. jika ada teman, alhamdulillah. tetapi, jika tiada, cukup sekadar ipod dan music aku menjadi teman. dari segi keselamatan, aku tidak risau. di bumi dublin ini, aku rasa jauh lebih selamat dari berada di tanah air sendiri. kadar jenayah yang semakin meningkat di dublin ini belum mampu melawan kadar jenayah 10 tahun lepas di tempat aku yang pastinya semakin meningkat saban tahun. 

namun, ada sesuatu yang aku suka lakukan bersama. seramai yang mungkin kalau boleh. iaitu MAKAN! pasti makanan menjadi lebih enak jika di nikmati bersama bak kata mak aku: makanan yang sedikit dan di rebut2 itulah yang lazat ;)

so jangan risau. bab makan, aku tidak makan sendiri2. sebab, adalah lebih baik makan bersama2, sambil menggemukkan diri bersama. ini dapat mengelakkan low self esteem kerana mempunyai lemak berlebihan kerana rakan-makan-dan-menggemukan-badan di sekeliling turut mempunyai lemak berlebihan. mungkin tidak sebanyak aku, tapi cukuplah untuk menyedapkan hati sendiri! dan yang paling penting, bila makan ramai2, bil makanan di patak2kan dan hasilnya: perut yang kenyang dengan harga yang murah kerana telah di bahagi 10 atau lebih :D

aku juga suka mengheret rakan aku untuk ke tutorial bersama. mengapa? sebab aku tidak mahu meningkatkan kebarangkalian aku untuk menjadi target tutor untuk bertanya soalan. bayangkan di dalam kelas, ada 10 orang. 5 orang berambut blonde. 2 orang bertudung. 3 lagi berambut hitam. jadi kebarangkalian aku untuk di tanya adalah sangat tinggi jika 3 si rambut hitam tidak hadir ataupun satu daripada perempuan bertudung ponteng. mengikut teori aku, tutor sangat suka kepada mereka2 yang ganjil. dalam fenomena di atas, dengan kewujudan seorang sahaja perempuan bertudung ie aku, lebih2 lagi berwarna ceria: kebarangkalian untuk aku di tanya ialah 1/3. bukan aku tidak suka menjawab soalan tetapi hakikatnya, aku jarang sekali mambuat persediaan yang mantap sebelum ke kelas. kadang2, tidak besedia langsung. jadi, sebelum aku memalukan diri sendiri, langkah berjaga2 ialah menggunakan matematik mudah mengira kebarangkalian :D

so kesimpulannya, jangan risau jika aku bergerak ke mana2 sendirian tetapi risaulah jika kamu tidak ajak aku makan bersama haha.

sedang menikmati kebersendiriannya,

jamieY

::when pics speak louder than words::

credit to mior faiq mior abu tahrin for this beautiful pictures. made me wonder a while. it's something worth sharing so here we go...

even an animal knows how to love and protect. we are human, created with cognitive function hopefully can do better than this insyaAllah ;)

30:21 And He has put love [mawadda] and mercy between your [hearts]: Verily in that are Signs for those who reflect.

::the green bin::

satu pagi yang indah, aku mendapat hidayah untuk bangun awal. ya, sila baca betul-betul. aku bangun awal. sebelum sempat pak cik dublin city council membersihkan tong sampah di deretan rumah kami. kagum sekali!

bukan itu sahaja yang pelik pada hari itu. perkara kedua yang biasa aku lakukan selepas solat subuh ialah, menarik duvet dan belayar ke alam mimpi. tapi, tidak pada hari itu. aku turun ke dapur. perut juga tidak mendendangkan irama sumbang seperti selalu. biasanya, bangun pagi sahaja, pasti suda berkeroncong minta di isi. iramanya pasti lagi mencemarkan corong telinga apabila sudah berniat puasa di malam harinya. 

pasti kamu tertanya-tanya, apa yang aku lakukan selepas itu? memasak sarapan yang baunya mampu mengejutkan jiran yang sedang tidur? membancuh air teh susu yang mengeluarkan wap berkepul-kepul ke ruang udara? atau menyapu tesco white bread dengan peanut butter dan strawberry jam? semua itu tidak berlaku.

adakah itu bermaksud bahawa, makanan tidak lagi menjadi motivasi kepada aku untuk bangun? jika itu adalah benar, maka, selepas ini bolehlah menjadikan sampah sebagai motivasi utama untuk bangun setiap hari. dengan azam: harus bangun sebelum pak cik dublin city council tiba.

kerana apa yang lebih menarik perhatianku pada pagi itu ialah plastik sampah recycle di tepi peti ais. sudah penuh. lalu aku ikat dan heret ke luar rumah, masukkan dalam bin hijau lalu menolak bin itu ke tepi jalan raya. agar dapat di kosongkan oleh pak cik dublin city council kemudiannya. dapat di hantar ke pusat-pusat kitar semula dan mungkin dapat menjadi produk baru yang boleh di pasarkan?

oleh itu, mari beri tepukan gemuruh kepada jamiey kerana telah berjaya menyelamatkan dunia daripada longgokan sampah. menyelamatkan dunia dari global warming. menjimatkan kos penghasilan produk.

sebenarnya bukan itu perkara pokok yang ingin aku sampaikan. ada yang lebih penting yang terdetik di hatiku yang ingin aku turunkan ke jari jemari agar pantas menari-nari membentuk satu rangkap yang mampu merungkai apa yang terbuku di hati.

ceritanya berlaku ketika sedang menarik bin hijau itu keluar. di ufuk timur, matahari sedang memancarkan sinar jingga yang begitu cantik. udara segar masuk ke cerobong hidungku yang kurang mancung terasa menenangkan sekali. pokok-pokok hijau. ada juga pokok-pokok yang gondol daunnya kerana mematuhi peraturan musim. cantik. cantik sekali. nyanyian burung-burung. ah indahnya dublin!

namun, semua ini bakal di tinggalkan dua bulan lagi...yang paling berat untuk di tinggalkan ialah KAMU!

yang sedih kerana bakal meninggalkan dublin,

jamieY

::lilits day::

conversation 1

kak F: lawanya. ada apa today?

us: thank you.o special day today. bday ****!

kak F: *giggle*

conversation 2: 

joyah: happy birthday **** (hugs)

****: thank you

alice: Happy birthday!!! (mari melakonkan trademark tangan alice!) :p kepada alice, sila jangan marah. main main ja bha ;) )

me: happy birthday ****! (hugs) see, we dressed up for you (batting eyelashes)

****: is it? bukan selalu ke you dress up? ( auw do u stalk me everyday? :p)

us: lol

me: no. we dressed up specially for you on your birthday (smiling)

joyah: yes. this is jamiey's tudung that im wearing

****: ya i know. this is so not you. but jamiey, yes! ( referring to the lip lap tudung. ya la, liplap is my thing ngee. but, wow, the stalking thingy is really good! sampai tahu what i like and what i dont)

amaran dari pemilik blog: nama dan watak-watak yang terdapat dalam cerita di atas adalah rekaan semata-mata. tiada yang berkaitan dengan yang masih hidup, yang masih ber'dress up' mahupun yang telah menemui tuhan. sila jangan ambil pusing ya ;)

yang perasan di stalk,

jamieY

::superlicious extravaganza::

what does birthday mean to you?

a BIRTHDAY cake?

a BIRTHDAY card?

a BIRTHDAY prezzie?

a BIRTHDAY party?

BIRTHDAY wishes from loved ones?

for more than 15 years i was growing up in  surroundings where birthday meant i was another year older, so what was the big deal? everyone got older day by day and if i was lucky to live long enough, next year will be another birthday. only on that specific date, it brought remembrance to me that i was older, one year older to be specific so be grateful for the life that He still allowed me to live on.

no birthday cake, no birthday card, no birthday prezzie. no party. but few wishes from those who remembered. and that were enough to put the smiles on the face. 

"but few people that i met along the journey of life taught me more than that" 

It's the day to make the birthday girl to feel EXTRA special. even it means:

• significant deficit in their savings! 
  
• tawaf-ing city centre and grafton street to find the perfect prezzie, perfect card and perfect wrapper
  
• sacrificing their precious time 
  
• bringing the prezzies everywhere she goes from dawn to dusk 
• suffering from shuffling gait because of sleep deprivation
• commuting 2 hours journey just to get the cake
• hiding like thieves in front of their own friends' house 
• shivering in the cold night in winter just to give her a surprise
• telling white lies that smell fishy lol
• making all the way to her house in the night to have a party. i tell you, it's not a short distance.
• forcing the eyelids to open wide to prepare sushi for her

alisa hanum: one of the masterminds who planned it all.

sarah, nazihah : partners in crime who also masterminded the bash

syamsiah, nazihah were the planners. siti fairudza was my birthday mate. they were too genius to make me and fai believed in them. 

fadhilah, indang jalilah: their task was to make sure i was home for the surprise

nurul hana, khairul annisah who prepared the sushi. THANK YOU GIRLS!

reading the verses of LOVE

12 bright pink roses all the way from UK ;)

the red dress that is envied by most! THANK YOU JIAH! this is absolutely gorgeous ;)

the glamorous clutch. THANK YOU SARAH! love it bling bling ;)

the super sexay red heels.THANK YOU ALISA! you know i have wanted this for so long!

my new baby OM. a treat for myself. THANK YOU to MARA ;)

this phone is definitely awesome 

a matching stylish bracelet. THANK YOU WADA! (kotak ja guess harap maklum)

 

divalicious bracelet to go with the dress, heels and clutch. THANK YOU SYAM!

 THANK YOU INDANG and HAN for this huggable fluffy Hootchie, for the second birthday surprise and for the chocolate banana cake! I know you girls will be missing me when i get back home for good ;p

 

jauh di mata dekat di hati. THANK YOU NARIMAH! i know how sick and busy you were but still managed to edit (delete wrinkles to be exact) and got this done. 

my dear beautiful girls,

that might be the last birthday that we celebrated together in Dublin. one of the greatest and memorable for me so far. it was not the luxurious, super expensive prezzies that overwhelmed me the most (surely they do, now i sound like a matre huh?) but all the effort and endless LOVE that was shown by itself through all the gestures and words that might be hard to be explained by any spoken language.

so,

i'll remember all the time that we spent together,

i'll remember all the laughter that we used to have,

i'll remember all the tears through downsides of life,

i'll remember all the patience of you girls adapting to my unpredictable behaviour,

i'll remember all the sacrifice made in the name of LOVE,

i'll remember all the tolerance in keeping things right

a super BIIIIIIIGGGGGGGG THANK YOU to alisa, jiah, sarah, syam, fai, indang, dilah, han, khairul annisah, hana, sheila and sheeda for the great night at our place.

asrih, kak fra, kak D, hana, mior, shml, thani, syahir, kurt, ba'ei and intan for the dinner and night out together!

 

for this beautiful friendship that we have, may remain till the end of time. cherish it because everyone of you is very dear to my heart and irreplaceable! 

for every wish from all over the world, every single word is counted! THANK YOU everyone. i do appreciate them. despite of your busy and hectic schedule, there was always time just to drop me a testimonial or write on my fb wall to say happy birthday. being remembered is a wonderful feeling ( and thank you to fb and fs birthday reminder! )

yang terasa di sayangi dan pastinya menyayangi,

jamieY

::even dinosaurs had it!::

in one fine cold night, i flipped through the notes for tomorrow's lecture when i came across this:

Not confined to human, even dinosaurs had OA ( osteoarthritis)

won't forget this statement. forever.

::horsey riding::

Date:     1st november 2008

Venue:  Dublin

            Abbeyfield Farm, Co. Clane, Kildare

Time:   11.30 am - 8.00 pm

after one hour and a half of im-freezing-while-waiting-for-the-bus, we arrived in the farm, one hour drive from Dublin

indang feeding Finn. i did not give her tangible items for her birthday, instead i gave her memories. so please pretty, don't be amnesic or demented :D

the most dramatic picture of the bunch : jiah feeding Finn, apple was falling, extra concentrated saliva of his was dripping, and disgusted expression of jiah

me acting cool feeding Finn. total of apples given: countless :D

Finn asking for more apples. with one condition Finn, kiss me first! hihi

total time spent playing with the horses and DOGS : 1 hour

riding Hootch, the most macho horse among all 3. the boy in orange is Donald, a future horsie business man :D

auuww Hootch loves me. he was begging for me not to leave him :D

all 3 horses discussing who's the most cool rider :D

total time spent riding the horse, chit chatting and having fun : 1 hour

triplet date in ciao bella roma (means welcome roma beautiful girl ) *ehem2*

did i tell u that italian guys are handsome? 

total time spent "cuci mata-ing": 2 hours

total number of the waiter came to our table: 13 roughly lol

 

charlie's angels riding horses. perfect day, perfect fun with the perfect people! 

 note the horses, they are all camera shy haha

the pictures will be updated once i have collected all from my other two girlfriends. wait for more cham-whoring poses from us! lol