::potluck 2008::

mcm suda jadi annual event, potluck for the second time was held today in stephen's green park.to get everyone together and have a good chat and makan2 is really hard nowadays esp when exam syndrome is affecting almost everyone :p

the main agenda of this event is to get to know everyone more. being classmates who study under one roof, breathing the very same air since last year, and went tru all the bitterness and sweetness living as a student thousand miles away from home, we share few memories but it doesn't guarantee that we know everyone well, inside and out. 

quoted from asrih "merapatkan yg sudah rapat" i wud like to add, menyatukan yg rapat hihi [lalala sepa makan cili trasa la pedas hehe]

sepertinya semua makanan yg di hidangkan lazat2 belaka malangnya capacity perut tbatas...so berdikit2 saja..we makan2, we shared stories n gossips, we take pix and we laughed out loud over jokes. the merriment filled the air and we really enjoyed ourselves.

but maybe this potluck will be the last for me and for the rest of pmc bound students..yeah we'll back to continue "berjuang" in our very own land, malaysia next feb iAllah...

maybe the food ingested will be digested and end up as excretion products but not the memory~

::sToP bURpinG!!!::

it's not im goin to ask u guys u stop burping ( if u have to, means u have to stop eating :p) but this is my story of what happened today...

after finishing the second pathology lecture ( grand! coz i din sleep during the lec hehe) me n mior headed to stephen doyle's endoscopy suite in lower ground floor...he was scheduled for clinical observation today but not me. i was scheduled for this thingy last week but i skipped it :p.so i went today to replace what i have missed hehe

ok make it short, we had to run and grab white coats from surau as we were not allowed to be in the room without the white coat...keranamu sebuah pengalaman~

ok as we got into the room, i saw the doctor was sitting in front of the pc busy doin his work.he was writing reports on the previous patient...he is from middle east if im not mistaken with some grey hair ( not around the frontal lobe area :p) and stern face...i greeted him and asked his permission to do observation n he said it was ok. the first female patient had colonoscopy and there was no abnormality.

i had to run after him when he went out to ask questions but he asked us to wait for the next two patients...ok good! more good show to go :)

one male patient in his 40s stepped into the room 1. hez bald, looked pale but his eyes are bright. i greeted him, introduced ourselves and ask for his consent to observe the procedure...

"okay no problem. u have to learn something btw" he said while sitting at the end of the bed...o thank you sir! how kind of u!

if pple asked, what do i get studying overseas? this is my answer! i learned how to respect other people's right.  i have an experience of where my right as a patient was violated by so called a good doctor in my hometown. sadly, we msians still lacking of this attitude, asking for consent!for me it's not juz a protocol.. it means respecting other pple's right.and being here, this matter is strictly emphasized in every aspect of our practice. the patient may refuse to be examined if u couldnt make him/her comfortable...

after pethidine and anasthesia were injected intravenously, he got sedated and can barely stay with us. the doctor was performing bronchoscopy on him..inch by inch the camera invaded his bronchus then down to oesophagus. suddenly the patient started to cough as his recurrent laryngeal nerve, a branch of vagus ( yeay mari revise anatomy!) got irritated...the nurse tried to calm him down but he juz coudnt bear the long black thingy that was very foreign to his tissues.he coughed out again and again...

"STOP BURPING!!!" the doctor yelled at him.

o gawd, the moment i heard that, i was shocked. maybe the doctor was too stressed with the work burden mior told me..maybe it's true but the incident was still playing in my head over and over again...

i din blame the doctor nor the patient but, to be honestly say: everyone deserves respect and to be respected, respect others first. the patient was there because he needed u but dun ever forget, one day, we might be needing em more than he needs us! 

::yeppiey day::

balik2 umah mcm rutin hari2, buka my baby apple then tgk msg n all..erm xda urg best on9 hehe...so aku settlekan laundry...when i got back to my desk, i got msgs from a fren..

dia ckp dia da sent puisi yg dia janji...aku pon dgn eager buka fs hehe. ni kira hadiah dia pas aku tlg hari tu. but not worth to mention, aku x tlg sgt pon...bnd kecik..but how see people appreciate others? 

enjoy the poem :)

ANDAINYA ADA AWAN YANG BISA KU CORET NAMAMU

AKAN ADA TULISAN INDAH YG MENJADI SAKSI BAHAWA KAU SENTIASA BERADA DALAM HATI SANG PELANGI...(i wonder sepa la sang pelangi ituu hehe)

JAUH MANA KAU BERDIRI...KAU TETAP MELIHAT BAHAWA WARNA PELANGI ITU TETAP SAMA...

INDAHNYA DELTA DINEGERI ORANG,NAMUN LEBIH INDAH LAGI SANG LADANG MINYAK YANG TERBENTANG LUAS DI SINI...(ya ya my place got byk palm oil plantation :p)

AKU TAHU LAUT TETAP SAMA WARNANYA ANTARA DUNIA NYATA DAN ILUSI...

NAMUN SANG BAYU INDAH DI SANA TIDAK BISA MENYENTUH KULIT GEBU GADIS GUNUNG DI SINI...(aku gadis gunung yg berkulit gebu yeay haha)

IRONINYA, BILA KTA RINDU AKAN ADA AWAN YG SENTIASA MENANTIMU DI SINI...(sepa mau jadi my awan?lalala~)

BERDOALAH SELALU..KERANA PELANGI DI SINI AMAT MERINDUIMU WAHAI SAHABATKU...

SENYUMLAH UNTUK SEBUAH KEHIDUPAN YG ABADI...(sdg tersenyum :) )

SEKIAN CETUSAN RASA CORETAN JIWA DARI TEMANMU...

nukilan daeng alwi bin daud 

thank you!!! 

::hey ms sailor!::

 18-20th of april, Dromineer, Co. Tippery, Ireland

tidak pernah aku mbayangkan walau dalam mimpi untuk mngemudi bot sendiri dan belayar di lautan terbentang luas. well, ini bukan lagi mimpi. 

mula2 sampai di otway lodge, guest house sekitar jam 8.30 pm( tu pon slps 4 jam dalam bas meneposkan bum), agak kecewa jgk la tgk tmpt tu hanya harbour, bukan pantai yg di impi2kan :p. berat beg jak bawak bikini haha.x jadi nk sunbathing :p

selepas check in, malam tu trus tdo, kumpul tenaga untuk aktiviti sailing yg akan bermula awal pagi esok...while the rest yg mmg ada night life, go on wif their own activities.

tepat jam 10.15am pagi sabtu, kami bersarapan di LDYC bsama 75 urg peserta trip ni. selepas mdengar taklimat dr ketua rombongan, enchek victor the organiser of this trip, kami bgerak ke garaj belakang. N dgn gagahnya memikul the main sail hail. "strong woman" puji enchek V kpd N...tersipu2 N haha

aku mnolong mngangkat 4 jib shj ats arhn mr pres. ok mr pres! saya bsiap sedia mnerima arhn! :p

proses mnyediakan sebuah bot mngambil masa dalam 10min...snap sana snap sni pon x sudah lagi. pasang tukar life jacket pon x suda lagi...bila the first person naik dan selamat kembali ke darat tanpa perlu mnunjukkan skill berenang mahupun mnyelam, aku semakin teruja!im goin to do this! 

the weather that morning was too gusty till we were not allowed to be on the boat without an instructor. windy and cloudy. the waves of the lake are enuf to capsize the small boat. so as a precaution, one instructor will control the boat and the beginner needed to control the jib only.

bosan mnunggu...almost 3 hours tcongok kat harbour mnunggu giliran. tba2 mr V dtg..

"ok who else has not sailed?"

macam budak tadika, me, N, and few other girls angkat tgn tggi2 seolah2 mnuturkan "pick me up  pick me up!"

"u wanna go wif me?"he asked me...ME??!

i was d last in the line but he picked me! wow what a lucky day! n to be a student under him will b great i guess hihi. he got experience, hez smart, hez a professional plus hez cute :p

"sure!" i replied...sorry girls, it's not that u guys r not attractive but i attracted his attention d most hahahaha.dush jamiey! jgn perasan bleh x? :p

we sailed on pico 8 lalala~ he tod me a lot on how to catch the wind, how to tuck and to change direction...how to control the main sail and the tiller. one tip, he owez set a point and sail towards the point.it's easier he said. ok mr V keep talking ...u know wuteva u said wont get into my mind coz ur blue eyes r more beautiful haha. no la..he was a gud teacher. n he even puji me for nothing, like he exactly knows how to motivate his student....

we kept talking n sailing lalala~

that night, we had bbq..melantak lagi hehe. we socialized, get to know each other, hang around enjoying good music and having fun. then i played table tennis (my first day of playing the so called ping pong) wif N before the rest joined us. inilah manusia2 yg x sdr diri nk exam hihi.  

sunday morning, we were scheduled to have another short sailing session. i planned to ride on the big boat since i dun wanna get wet. but as there were only few people that morning, i was determined to give another go! y not? i mean im here so make full use of it. 

again i had to wait for my turn. there was a boat that is available but there was no instructor to go wif me. when vanessa ( instructor ) offered me to go wif her, i eagerly jumped into the boat n off we go! i sailed again but this tym she let me to take control over the boat! i mean it's fun to sail but to control the boat, the fun is more!!!however, she din allow me to control the main sail. maybe she din really trust me. i was fine wif that. we sailed, tucked few times and sailed back to the shore. and the coldness was numbing me.the lake water splashed all over me...freezingly cold grrr~

when i got on the shore, i saw few friends of mine were just finished.there were sheila n mr V... suddenly i heard mr V said "it's jamilah's turn btw"

hihi okeh! i dun mind doin it again hehe. i jumped into pico 6 and we sailed crossing the calm lake of trippery.

this time he allowed me to take control the whole boat. imagine that hez the student n im the insructor hehe. we tucked as i pleased, and the feeling of sailing on ur own was awesome! i mean this my second time of getting on the boat and it was not bad at all. the tiller is pushed to the right if u wanna go to ur left n vv. the tucking, i was quite blur at first. but doin it for the 4th time, it was perfect! *grinning* kena puji hehe.

n to my surprise, i did the reversal of tucking which has not been tod! well i did spontaneously and accidentally. n u know how much i impressed him? haha.."but dont ever try it in the wild weather because if u fail to catch the wind means disaster! it's too dangerous" he advised me.no i wont because i dun even know how to do it again hihi

we sailed towards the shore as the we were running out of time. i helped to unscrew wuteva was necessary n we thanked each other in the end. 

we headed back to ath cliath at 3pm leaving  all sweet memories in dromineer~ 

lessons that i got:

1. dun ever let ur incapability limits u. instead, find an alternative to enable u to do something as sometimes chance only comes once in life :)

2. do good and goodness will come to u

3. dun ever forget to bring ur wind breaker 

4. dun leave ur flip flop when dogs are around :p :p

o ya, sorry kak dee, i missed ur bday celebration. btw, happy belated n have a wonderful lyf ahead! as wonderful as u r! 

good nite!cheers~

::disNeY on iCe::

childish? not matured? nay! i was celebrating the kids in me :p

we ( jiah, alisa, alvin, wada, afni n her fren, shml) went to that event...i was accidentally there actually. the ticket was booked or sum1 else and he couldnt make it, so i replaced him...

the event started at 7.30 and i left home at 5.15 pm ( see how enthusiastic am i?:p) we headed to RDS hall 8 which is about 10 mins walk from the bus stop. we nearly join the rugby dia-hard-fans to watch the match between leinster and another team as we were trying to find our way to hall 8. but, the obvious thing to lead our way that time were KIDS! we followed the parents and their kids who donned various disney characters. while walking, we observed and heard some of us made jokes on the kids...

"o i dunno that snow white wears specks"

"nerdy snow white la!"

"ooohhh meaning the are having study group with the seven dwarfs?"

"hahahaha"

"so we r the tallest among the kids huh?"

"yeah because we din get this chance wen we were small. we were deprived" 

that was so true, at least for me. do u have any idea how much does it cost to watch this kinda event in msia? about rm150+. that's equal to monthly household expenditure of my family! that's for one person. okeh lets say there are 10 of us...rm 1500??no way my mom will allow me to spend money that way. MEMBAZIR katanya. well, her brain can make her the next financial minister i guess hehe...i wish i have that attitude when it comes to monetary thingy ngee

we kept walking but the faces of each of my sibs played in my head. we shared hopes, dreams, tears and happiness. together. we have quarrel. we fight but still we LOVE each other. and the moment i was happy watching the event, i wonder what are they doin at home...

disneyland-the happiest place on earth...i wonder will my sibs agree with that statement when  maybe they couldnt even get the chance to be there? what are the meaning of happiness for em? 

fancy dresses?

new games?

toys?

maybe the shoes with the light?

i owez make them speak to me when i call home. because they will be hysterically call out my name and say "kak belikan aku anu ya..jam! jam loceng"

"kak aku jugak ya..aku mau "acut" (means kasut)...wana pinkk!"

o sweetie, u r sOOo cute. i wonder how big r u now!

and they were happy doin that! n u know how much it makes me happy??i can do that everyday! haha. they are so simple. and cute! 

ok back to the event. it was featuring the incredibles when the family tried to save mickey and minney who were kidnapped by syndrome, the antagonist character of the story. and like usual, heroes win! and the happiest place on earth was saved!

the skating skills shud be given two thumbs up! they were amazing and the lighting was wow!so it just worth the price that paid!

we had so much fun after all~

::inteRnaTi0naL nigHt::

one word to describe it. AWESOME! 

from dancing, songs, musics, martial arts, all were performed gracefully. excitement filled the air of Mansion House, Dawson Street for more than 5 hours, started at 7pm till midnight.

the so called International Night 2008 was brought by RCSI as the annual event. the ball room was packed with students, lecturers and parents...all were there with one intention: to enjoy the performances from 5 nations: Canada, Malaysia, India, Carribean African and Ireland.

so who performed best? well, the main objective of this event is not to compare which country did the most wow performances.

the malaysians made us proud ( well, segerombolan tau dtg tok bg support hehe) when they did it very well...it was started with martial art and dancing performance to represent the Chinese, then followed by "tarian zapin" to represent the Malay and last but not least, traditional Indian dance to represent the Indian. but lastly, we were all known as MALAYSIANs, not indians from malaysia etc.

canadian chose to differ  by performing a kinda different thing. they introduced their country through musical drama. and it all changed the conservative perceptions that most of us had previously. well, canada is full of stupid politicians ( as the actor said haha) and there is a place where the women are legally allowed to be topless! so guys, book ur ticket to canada now :p

one more thing that was so interesting is that there is a place ( again i forgot the name) the population density is 2 people/km2! so can u imagine, how lonesome the people living there? but it's good though in terms of preventing a disease that is commonly spread via contacts in packed places hehe

Irish, more or less like last year performances, they had our ears and eyes on their celtic music performances and "shona" ( i beg ur pardon if i mistakenly spelled it wrong :p). the shona was performed by two beautiful young ladyies with "wow" voice! the songs were both about love but guess what? in the end, both girls in the love story died..oo so sad! i guess irish love this kinda story huhu~

CAS and Indian team were not bad at all! dancing and cultural instrumental performances, all made us forget a lil while about the coming big exam next month haih~ well, it was worth 8 euro ticket hehe

one thing i can observe is that, regardless of the nationality, the performers can be in any nation team and gave their full commitment! they can even master the language of the country that they were performing for. no matter what colour u r, what language u speak, what country u r from, all are ready to give out the very best of themselves! 

it was all fun after all~

::LiFe's w0nDerFuL::

    

life's full of unexpected things~

i was happy this morning when suddenly imah approached me and asked "jamiey, still wanna join the sailing thingy?" 

"yeah sure!" half-excited because i was juz woke up from a "short nap" in the clinical teaching class :p. excessive daytime sleepiness i guess hehe.

it was last month when i was so excited to join the Sailing Trip 2008 that is conducted by Sailing Team of RCSI. i went to register myself but guess what? i was the last person in the waiting list...waiting list ok? 

so i din put much hope on that. when people mentioning about that trip, i was kinda, o okeh let it be. not my rezeki (see how fatalistic am i? :p)  i really wanted to go. i mean really really wanted to go...

i never expected this wud happen to me...i mean it's a dream come true! i never interested in sailing since i cnt swim :p...but, giving up this opportunity juz because i cnt swim will make me a double loser haha. never i imagine myself to get into a sailing boat and be in d middle of the border-less sea?isn't it exciting??it'll be once in a lifetym experience!

so who created the miracle? hehe it was my classmate. shez in arts club and will have an activity on the very same day of the sailing trip. so she decided to give the place to me ngee :) thnx! 

life is full of surprises that will make u smile~ 

IMAM 5th medicaL symp0siuM 2008

sat, 29 march 2008

a big applause to IMAM for the success of the annual symposium that attracted medical students and professionals from all over Dublin, Cork, Manchester, Leeds, London etc. i wud rather say that to join this kinda thing was a call. i mean, before this, i just have the intention to go and i kept it to myself. then slowly, it juz vanished away, blown away by the freezingly cold wind of dublin :p

so many things that we ought to learn along the way. and the process of learning will never stop till the final call comes to us. i wud like to reflect on the symposium itself. so ok jamiey, enuf wif the crap!~

my fav was Prof Dr zabidi. he rawks man! digestive yet strong points were presented by him...and most importantly, all the points are practical!!!

"If u want to realize what u have as a Dr, come out from the womb! face the reality"

dush! big slap right on my face. i realized that to be sum1, confront the reality, not avoiding it. okeh fine, i used to have a pessimist thought in my head "do i really have all it takes to be sum1?"

actually, the answer is CLEAR! it's me whoz gonna decide what i want to be. all our destiny has been written down but, to be there, it is strongly determined by how hard we work on it. so shoo to all the negative restrictive thoughts ngee

FACTOR G. it kept playing in my head long after it has been uttered. he even said the 2 magical words to me personally ( hehe yeah i know he rox :p). do goodness and it will come back to u! maybe in other form. sure Dr!!!

i personally like his opinion on answering the question "serve in msia or overseas?" i guess he tackled the question in  a very good way. the followings were what he said:

• being here is not a coincidence. but think, how much can u give back to pay all the tax payers? have ur goals in head.
  
• dun limit ur contributions to malaysians. [ sure it's true. i mean we need to serve our own people but that is not the only thing that we need to do. go internationally because not only msians need ur service but open ur eyes widely and observe, how many people out there are waiting for good hands to comfort them? how many children in desperate needs of food? how many refugees out there are putting their life at risks?]
• are u contributing? what form of contribution?the career of so called a Dr is a life long commitment. life long devotion even it means sacrificing throughout ur life span huu~ 
• it's not the place that matters, but what we do matters d most!

the art of healing is beautiful! it's a career, it's an ibadah, it's a form of da'wah. to achieve the ultimate goal to jannah!

the message was too heavy and it took me sometime to digest the gist :p

be humble! ok it's cliche but i keep to repeat this to myself over and over again. i cnt really remember who gave the speech but he said this"

" u need 'em (patients) MORE than they need u sometime!!~"

so Dr, there is nothing really great of being one so put aside that arrogant feeling. human beings are complement to each other. u have that expertise and they have theirs. so we have balanced population living mutually exclusive and exhaustive ngee :p. dont be that so called bodoh sombong! learn wuteva u cud, from whoever u met regardless of anything!~

one more food for thought: the patient has a disease vs disease that a patient has

ok Dr, pick one! 

disease that a patient has - those who picked this tend to focus on the disease of the patient. the is no black and white answer. this kind of Dr may develop good diagnosis, good investigation, good management and end result: the patient is discharged feeling good! it's good isn't it?

for those who picked "the patient has a disease" is the most likely to be the doctor who will concentrate on the other aspects of the patient, not solely on the disease that the patient is suffered from: social, spiritual, economical etc. remember, we are ordinary human being? all these factors need considerable attention as missing of one element may have profound effects on us as human. i mean, each aspect of an individual shud be treated equally aite? 

the rest, i leave it to u guys to think about :p

nite :)

 

::freshly new::

the urge to write was too strong till i decided to have my very own blog. i have a fs blog before which i can hardly update it everyday. but it came to my mind that we cannot reverse every single second that we left behind so i decided to at least reflect something from my daily experience :)

today...

im a BIG loser today. i was rushing to the class when i got the message from my project mate that we r goin to have our meeting at 9.what??! 9 am?i juz had my shower ok?n she expected me to be there in 30 mins? it took me at least one hour to get myself to beaumont hospital plus minus all the traffic jams and delay of buses...

151 bus arrived after 10 mins of waiting. when i arrived in eden quay, i saw 27b was stopping to let the passengers board the bus. ok fine, i have to catch the bus! 1,2, 3 and i dashed towards the bus. who cares abt the people who were looking at a girl with her baju kurung running like she is in 100m race?! about one meter to go, i saw the bus slowly moving away, leaving me behind...ok fine, i missed the bus *sigh*

while waiting, i read Metro and the most interesting article today is : how to tell sum1 is for a long relationship or one night stand juz by looking on the face! so guys, u better put the "purdah" on because i think all the girls reading the article have started to analyse ur faces :p...personally, i think we cannot simply judge a person based on his/her facial shape or how long or mancung the nose is...maybe it's one of the factors but there are many other factors that make a man! 

when i held my head up, i saw my group mate..'o so u r here! i tod im the only one whoz late" and we giggled...yeah i know im sarcastic but that's me...she told me that she was on the bed when she sent the text about the meeting  thingy.

hmmpphh...

meeting, then ward tutorial...a new experience today as that was the first time i had a female simulated patient. i gave m**r who sat next to me a quick glance. i smiled cynically...

o man, shez young. shez beautiful. lucky u m**r hahaha ( bukan nama sbenar) what u expect from a simulated patient?we went this almost every week but we girls are ok to have male patients half naked in front of us. poor u guys...

"when the tutor asked me to percuss later, plz ,u go and volunteer ok?"he whispered to me. ok!

the class went on smoothly with the revision on cardiovascular and respiratory systems revision and PVD. at least i was not a complete loser in that class hihi. poor m**r, he was asked to percuss the patient and that was the only thing that he was completely reluctant to do. but for the sake of learning, he did it! bravo! well sometime we dun have much options till we have to grab wuteva is available for us!

when we were heading to the surau, one old man in his 60s bumped into me and alisa. he was lost in the busy hospital. okeh la, jum jadi hero alisa hehe. we asked what ward that his wife is in...AB clery he told us.

puzzled. i looked at alisa. okeh what's d name again? i dun know that the ward is exist here lol. so we accompanied him to the main lounge. 

surveying...huh,there it is! ok sir, it's in 4th floor!

as we were walking towards the ward, we learned that his wife has stroke for a year.she was juz admitted to this hospital i guess. since then, hez the loyal visitor. that's sOOo shweet sir! that's what i called LOVE. to be there whenever ur partner needs u. to be there to fight life's ups and downs. to accept ur partner as what s/he is. 

after ensuring that hez okay, we made or way to lecture hall. and i was dissapointed to know that the classes were cancelled. okay, lets go back home ngee...

but i decided to stay back and wait for the microb lecture that was scheduled at 2pm. ( ntah dpt dr mana, tba2 jadi baik hari ni :p)

and after 30 mins of waiting, Niall stevens the ****** sexay announced that the class is postponed. what? haih..okeh i shud have gone back 2 hours ago! what a wasteful day! except for the shweet old man! we were meant to meet each other today sir to gimme another vibe of the meaning of love and devotion ngee