::cita-cita baru aku::

aku mahu kahwin doktor. ini cita-cita aku dari sekarang.

ada doktor yang available di luar sana? lol

::al-fatihah::

masih aku ingat, ketika itu aku masih di zaman sekolah. seringkali pagi-pagi aku dirancakkan dengan lagu "mann" ataupun OST dari "kuch kuch hota he" kerana datuk udaku adalah penggemar lagu hindustan. dan aku membesar dengan lagu-lagu ini. koleksi lagu hindustan beliau mengalahkan kedai kaset top10 di tawau.

kalau penat memasang lagu hindustan, lagu "rhoma irama" pula di mainkan. tanpa jemu. aku juga membesar dengan lagu ini. aku suka lagu rhoma irama lebih dari lagu hindustan. mungkin kerana aku boleh memahami setiap seni katanya. mungkin.

masa di darjah 5, aku pernah meminjam baju datukku ini. entah mengapa, aku suka 3 jalur pada lengan baju ini. tergelak besar beliau melihat aku pada ketika itu kerana bajunya itu boleh memuatkan 2 saiz aku. sungguh. dia tegap orangnya. tinggi. wajah mirip rhoma irama. mungkin sebab itulah dia meminati penyanyi ulung indonesia itu.

aku sering mengusik beliau sebagai bujang terlajak. kerana di usia 40 tahun, beliau masih belum berkahwin. bukan tidak mahu, tapi hatinya patah. kerana seorang perempuan.

aku masih ingat, ketika beliau duduk bersila sambil menghisap dalam-dalam rokok surya maka berkepul-kepullah asap memenuhi serambi rumah. aku sering berseloroh, orang kuat merokok cepat mati. dia tergelak sambil memperlihatkan giginya yang sudahpun bercat tar. beliau pasti akan membidas kata-kataku dengan alasan yang sama. minum banyak air untuk mencairkan toksin. itu katanya.

namun, hari ini, aku terkesima dengan berita pemergian beliau.

sungguh. aku mahu bertemu dengan beliau lagi.

mengusik perut buncit beliau lagi.

menyindir tabiat perokok tegar beliau lagi.

aku mahu bersalaman dan mencium tangannya lagi.

kerana aku belum mintak ampun kali terakhir aku berjumpanya.

aku mahu dia memanggil aku 'dayang' lagi.

aku mahu memanggilnya 'awang' lagi.

aku mahu bercakap dalam slang orang KiKi dengan beliau lagi.

aku mahu dia memaafkan segala kekurang-ajaran aku dengan beliau selama ini.

*sayu*

*sebak*

moga roh beliau di cucuri rahmat. al-fatihah buat arwah datuk aku, yang telah kembali ke rahmatullah pada 08 disember 2009. moga roh beliau di tempatkan di kalangan orang-orang yang beriman. ameen.

cucu yang tidak patut menjadi contoh,

jamieY

::hesitancy::

Until one is committed, there is hesitancy, the chance to draw back, always ineffectiveness. Concerning all acts of initiative (and creation), there is one elementary truth the ignorance of which kills countless ideas and splendid plans: that the moment one definitely commits oneself, the providence moves too. A whole stream of events issues from the decision, raising in one’s favor all manner of unforeseen incidents, meetings and material assistance, which no man could have dreamt would have come his way. I learned a deep respect for one of Goethe’s couplets: “Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power and magic in it!

-WH Murray

::be happy!::

Life is Just a Bowl of Cherries,

Sometimes It's afraid Filled with Worries

Don't be afraid, When Things Go Wrong, Just be Strong.

When Thing Seems up in the Air,

And Everything is so Unfair,

And You Stumble and Fall

Just Pick Yourself up and Sing

If One Day You Lose Your Way,

Just Remember One Thing, My Friend.

When You're Under a Cloud

Just Visit Music and Sing

If One Day You Lose Your Way,

Just Remember that I'm Here to Stay.

Don't You Give up, Keep Your Chin up,

And Be Happy!

love,

jamieY

::kerana huruf R::

'R'

mudah bukan untuk menyebutnya? aRrr. aku boleh sebut berulang kali, dengan lidah menyentuh hard palate dia atas dan 1/3 hujung lidah bergegar mengikut frekuensi hembusan dari dalam perut. kerap kali huruf ini muncul dalam perkataan yang di tutur sehari-hari. apa yang ingin aku kongsi di sini ialah bagaimana kisah seorang budak yang lambat perkembangannya dalam menyebut huruf ini dengan betul.

al-kisah, budak ini tinggal di sebuah kampung. dia merupakan kakak kepada seorang adik lelaki yang sudah pun petah menyebut R seawal umurnya 4 tahun dan cucu kesayangan kepada seorang nenek tua. pada mulanya, si kakak tidak ambil kisah perihal adiknya itu. namun, melihatkan semua rakan sekelasnya sudah pandai menyebut R, dia merasakan ada sesuatu kecacatan pada dirinya. adakah bodoh sangat dirinya sampai R yang mudah itu tidak boleh disebutnya dengan betul? atau lidahnya terlalu pendek? atau mungkin hard palatenya yang terlalu tinggi umpama Marfan's syndrome?

perkara ini diadukan kepada neneknya. faham dengan keadaan cucunya, si nenek tersenyum dan mengatakan kepada cucunya

"ikut nenek sebut ni. perarang lari jawa takkeroi mageroro"

mahu menangis saja si cucu mendengar frasa yang penuh dengan huruf R itu. sedang satu R pun payah dia mahu sebut, ini kan pula juta-juta lemon R. melihatkan kerut kedut di muka si cucu, maka fahamlah si nenek.

"kalau yang ini? sandru? "

nampaknya, 'sandru' berjaya menambat hati si cucu untuk diberi percubaan sewajarnya. bermula dari saat itu, perkataan itu disebut-sebut tanpa lekang dari bibir. seperti janda baru mati laki meracau tidak tentu hala. siang malam, pagi petang, malah dalam tidur mimpi menyebut perkataan itu. obses. namun seminggu berlalu, masih tidak terlihat tanda-tanda bahawa si cucu sudah ada kemajuan dalam penyebutan huruf R.

satu hari, seperti biasa, si cucu pergi ke sekolah. dia sudah darjah 3 sekarang. sangat rajin ke sekolah. dia merupakan antara pelajar yang sangat suka menjawab soalan cikgu. hari itu, semangatnya berkobar-kobar lalu dengan sukarela setulus hati menawarkan diri untuk membaca karangan di hadapan kelas. baru setengah perenggan dia berpujangga, seluruh kelas terbahak-bahak muka merah ketawa. hilai tawa mengisi segenap ruang. nampaknya, karangan dengan R yang tidak betul itu sangat lucu bagi mereka.

si cucu mengadukan hal itu kepada si nenek. seperti biasalah, dengan kata-kata azimatnya, hati kecil itu kuat kembali. bersedia untuk bertatih lagi. kali ini, bukan dengan satu perkataan 'sandru' sahaja, tetapi dia mahu pintar menuturkan frasa panjang berjela itu. itu azamnya. dan dia berjanji kepada diri sendiri bahawa dia akan menyebut R dengan bangga satu hari nanti. di hadapan kelas. dan, dia juga berjanji dia akan buat kenduri kesyukuran jika dia berjaya melakukan itu.

bulan silih berganti, di hening pagi hujung minggu, si cucu berlari mendapatkan neneknya. menjerit bagai mahu terkeluar anak tekaknya bersorak keriangan. dan dengan tercungap-cungap, dia menyebut R di hadapan neneknya. melompat suka suki dia. dia berjaya! hari isnin itu juga dia mahu membaca karangan di hadapan kelas lagi. kali ini dengan R yang terang, jelas dan betul. bukan pelat.

seminggu kemudian, kenduri kesyukuran pun di adakan atas kehendak si cucu.

p/s: istimewa bukan? belum pernah aku dengar mana-mana budak mengadakan kenduri kesyukuran semata-mata berjaya menyebut R dengan betul.

aku rindu.

kosa kata bugis

sandru' = senduk

perarang lari jawa takkaro mageroro : biawak lari di bawah pelepah kelapa berorok bunyinya

::peminat setia irme::

kepada anda yang terkandas di blog ini setelah meng'google' nama dayang irme hafziany, aku kagum dengan anda. beberapa kali anda terkandas di sini. namun masih tegar meng'google' nama kawan aku itu. termasuk kali ini, sudah beberapa kali aku melihat IP adress yang sama terkandas di sini. hebat. teknologi juga hebat. kerana aku tahu anda kini berada di jepun, negara matahari terbit.

so aku hadiahkan banyak-banyak irme hafziany kepada anda:

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

irme hafziany

come on, at least leave a comment if you really wanna know what's goin on with her :)

me,

jamieY

::dua puluh dua::

alhamdulillah,

as my fingers are dancing gracefully over this lappy's keyboard, i am still breathing in the same oxygen as i used to since 22 years ago. maybe the concentration is different, but yeah, it's free and unlimited. a blessing.

for the past 22 years, my life has been wonderful, interlaced with ups and downs at times that make me as what i am today. i believe everyone is on the same boat. but, what makes it different for me is, the presence of special people that obviously painted my life so beautifully that i am amazed myself to have a look on.

some may have painted it with basic colours, earthing an indispensable base.

some may have painted it with odd colours that sometimes brew an urge in me to expunge them from the readily beautiful drawings.

some may have painted it with bright colours that make every heart that sees dances with gay.

some may have painted it with dull colours that leaves it mysterious.

some may have painted it with mixed colours, sharpen every edge of my wooly personality.

some may have painted it with monochrome colours, yet leave nothing but a memory.

some may have painted it with directive lines, sometimes i followed, sometimes i don't.

some may have painted it with zig-zag lines, adventurous and demanding.

some may have painted it with smooth lines, and easy ride is equally joyful.

whatever colour you have painted on my drawings,

black,

red,

yellow,

orange,

purple,

pink,

green,

blue,

they are BEAUTIFUL.

.my mother, my father, my granny, my fikri, my senna, my ema, my jum, my nain, my ceeman, my nadia.

.narimah, yule, kak khai, rowz, yene.

.my closest girlfriends.

.my guy friends you know who you are.

.my colleagues.

with that, heartiest THANK YOU!

di ulang tahun yang ke 22,

jamieY

::adab bergurau::

berapa kali dalam hidup kau, sedang hilai tawa memecah suasana sesama kawan akrab, terlampias gurauan seperti:

"siot je engkau ni"

"bangang. bukan itu maksud aku"

"bongok bongok bongok. dia itulah orangnya"

aku pun sudah hilang perhitungan terhadap perkara seumpama ini. aku tidak kisah. lebih-lebih lagi jika memang gurauan itu hanya di lafazkan dalam nada bergurau, dan pada masa dan ketika itu 'mood bergurau'. dan aku tahu, dia tiada niat untuk melabel aku sebagai apa sekalipun. dan, dia itulah kawan aku yang aku tahu hati budinya.

bayangkan, kau sedang berjalan, tiada bunyi tiada hiruk pikuk, tiba-tiba orang sebelah kau berpaling dan melabel kau sebagai perempuan jalang. lalu kau pun masih yakin dia itu bergurau dan bertanya: kau memanggil aku jalang? kemudian dia dengan tanpa pengertian sedikitpun dengan rasa tersinggung kau menjawab seyakin pasti: ya!

kalau kau membuat lawak pasal ini, maaf, ianya tidak lucu sama sekali. full stop.

kejalangan merasuk,

jamieY

::money is the root of evil?::

money is the root of evil.

muak? mual? atau sudah basi di suapkan dengan propaganda ini? atau mungkin propaganda ini sedikit pun tidak menarik minat kau kerana memang bercanggah 100% dengan prinsip kau?

aku pernah berpegang bahawa duit bukan segala-galanya. dan aku tidak pernah menjadikan duit sebagai 'ultimate goal' aku dalam hidup ini. pernah. tidak bermaksud sekarang ini aku sudah menjadi mata duitan dan duit adalah segala-galanya bagi aku. tidak. akan aku jelaskan sedikit demi sedikit.

membesar dalam serba kesulitan dan cukup makan saja, aku selalu berfikir: mengapa sesetengah orang dikurniakan duit melimpah ruah sampai tidak tahu bagaimana untuk dibazirkan duit itu? aku pernah menyaksikan ini. setiap hari dia akan mengenakan baju Dior, handbag LV, seluar Guess, minyak wangi D&G yang semerbak satu dewan kuliah sampai pitam orang yang duduk di belakang. benar. lihat pula keesokan harinya. satu set pakaian berjenama lain. percaya atau tidak, baju itu tidak pernah dipakai berulang. boleh bayangkan betapa besar wardrobe dia? namun, bila aku rasional balik, itu adalah ujian Allah padanya, aku pula diuji dengan kesusahan. fair enough?

tapi berbalik kepada topik tadi, benarkah duit adalah raja segala kejahatan? sekarang timbangkan ini:

dalam diri manusia ada seketul daging. jika baik daging ini, maka baiklah. jika buruk daging ini, maka buruklah. daging ini adalah HATI.

secara mudahnya, hati adalah raja yang memerintah seluruh anggota. samada untuk kebaikan atau keburukan, semuanya terpulang kepada sejauh mana hati itu telah diterapkan nilai-nilai mahmudah. bukan saja dalam pengurusan kewangan, malah setiap tindak-tanduk kita. jadi, sekecil-kecil pahala dan sebesar-besar dosa bermula dari H.A.T.I. tapi bukan duit. jika kau terjumpa dalil yang mengatakan duit adalah punca kejahatan, aku ingin sekali turut sama melihat dan mengkajinya :)

maka, adakah wajar untuk melabel bahawa semua orang yang jahat adalah mereka yang mahukan duit?

semua ini bertalu-talu mengetuk kotak fikiran aku usai ceramah 'financial management' tadi. tahniah kepada encik hamzah kammapu kerana beliau adalah orang pertama meyakinkan aku bahawa orang yang mahukan duit bukanlah orang yang jahat. dan duit bukanlah raja segala kejahatan, bukan juga segala-galanya. tapi dengan duit, 'we can buy heaven'

when we talk about 'buying heaven', i don't limit my discussion into hedonism. that is temporary 'heaven' that will fade away as the wind blows it away, leaving you with nothing and nothingness!

the heaven that i am talking about is eternal. on earth and hereafter insyaAllah. but i am not going to talk about how is it possible as i am not an another ustazah :) i'll let your fresh and active neurons to work on it.

the gist of the talk is:

1. know your personal finance and manage it well. planning is important.

2. money doesn't come easily. be PATIENT because patient is beautiful and it worth everything you sacrificed for.

3. ASB is the best investment esp for students like me.

4. don't be fooled by financial consultant who promised you a rate of 25% . know what is it exactly!

5. discipline yourself to invest at least 2/3 of the remaining income every month, another 1/3 for SOS finance. sounds easy huh?

6. land is a very wise investment. and it's cheap.

7. work for the money, then let the money work for you.

8. and ladies out there are strongly advise to marry a rich man! :D

$$,

jamieY

::bercakap::

bercakap. kemahiran unggul. mula terbentuk seumur setahun jagung. bermula dengan kata paling mudah sehingga sekarang, mampu mencipta bahasa sendiri. hebat bukan? bagaimana kemahiran ini terus berkembang dan akhirnya, hingga hari ini menjadi aset terpenting segelintir kita. terutamanya minah kepoh dan joyah rongak. heboh rukun tetangga dengan sensasi berita. kucing jiran sebelah beranak jantan betina pun berada dalam pengetahuannya. hebat.

bercakap. berapa ramai yang mencetak duit daripadanya? kering air liur, namun hasil lumayan. angka dalam akaun mendadak tambah. kereta beranak pinak berjenama seberang laut. sumber pendapatan hanya dengan bercakap. benar atau bohong, belakang cerita. bukankah itu kerja Tuhan di Padang Mahsyar kelak? lagipun yang menjadi mangsa bohong bukan hali keluarga mereka. ahli keluarga mereka sudah tahu mereka ini ular kepala dua.

bercakap. berapa patah kata kita mampu tutur? sehari? setahun? sepanjang kita hidup? memang hebat bukan? tapi berapa peratus pula kata-kata itu bermanfaat? berapa peratus yang menjadi sia-sia? berapa peratus pula yang diselit kesombongan? rasa bongkak? okay, aku terasa makan cili kerinting.

bercakap. berapa banyak jiwa telah aku guris dengan perkataanku? berapa banyak jiwa yang telah aku hampakan? berapa jiwa yang telah aku nista hingga berdarah? berapa jiwa pula yang telah aku gembirakan? sedikit. terlalu sedikit hingga terbilang dengan hanya 5 jari.

bercakap. Nabi pesan jangan cakap jika tiada benda yang baik untuk disampaikan. itu pesan Nabi. tapi hakikat, aku suka sampaikan benda tidak baik. kerana sesungguhnya yang jahat itu tertonjol megah dari kebaikan bukan? aku gagal mentafsir. kadang-kadang. aku gagal menjaga apa yang berada di antara dua gigi ini. kadang-kadang.

kepada sahabat handai yang pernah aku guris perasaannya kerana tisu lembut antara dua gigi ini, maafkan aku. ikhlas.

aku rasa sudah sampai masa untuk aku kurangkan bercakap. kurang pembohongan. kurang kata-kata nista. kurang penat.

yang bermunasabah,

jamieY

::my 24-hour-day went like this::

pagi ini aku bangun awal. seawal ayam-ayam di sabah yang celik untuk berkokok nada nyaring agar bangkit manusia-manusia dari alas tidur untuk menyembah Penciptanya. bercantik-cantik dan menuju ke rumah sakit kerana dijadualkan ada pembelajaran tepi katil (bedside teaching) pada jam 8. kononnya.

jam 9. masih merayau di dalam wad hilang arah tuju.

jam 10. selesai mengintegorasi seorang pesakit berumur 30 tahun, kacak, belum berkahwin dan menghidapi ketumbuhan pada nasopharyx yang telah melebarkan empayar sel-sel jahat ke nodul limpa. kasihan.

masih hilang arah tuju.

jam 11. diberitahu pembelajaran tepi katil akan ditunda. hebat!

jam 11 lebih 30 minit. diberitahu untuk menunggu di luar klinik telinga, hidung dan tekak sehingga tuan tabib datang. hebat. hebat kuasa lima.

jam 12. tuan tabib menyeru kami masuk. berduyun-duyunlah kami menjadi pemerhati senyap. kaku.

jam 12 lebih 15 minit. tuan tabib minta diri. ada kecemasan kerana ada pesakit sedang bertarung dengan zakaratul maut.

hilang arah tuju kuasa lima lagi.

jam 12 lebih 30 minit. diberitahu bahawa tuan tabib akan berada di dalam dewan bedah sehingga jam 3. pembelajaran tepi katil akan di buat jam 3.

kali ini aku tidak hilang hala tuju. terus merembat beg galas dan menerobosi pintu keluar menuju ke kenderaan empat roda. destinasi kami pasti. rumah!

************************************

jam 3 lebih 30 minit. sesi perbincangan bersama tutor. hebat. sebab kami kena menjawab soalan yang anak tekak pasti loya mendengarkannya. hitung sendiri, soalan ini telah di tanya bertubi-tubi dari aku bergelar lepasan SPM sehingga hari ini. tidak salah aku, yang budak tadika pun pasti akan mendapat tanda 'raet' dan lima bintang jika memberi jawapan, pasti sudah lebih 25kali aku diajukan soalan yang sama.

"mengapa kamu mahu menjadi tabib?"

demi tuhan yang maha agung, aku memilih jalan ini kerana aku yakin, ini adalah jalan terbaik untuk aku memberi kepada makhluk serupa aku. manusia. walaupun pemberian aku mungkin bukan yang terbaik.

jika ditanya soalan seumpamanya lagi, aku akan angkat kaki. tidak akan berpaling.

***************************

jam 5 lebih 30 minit. usai jogging. aku sedang berjalan sambil menyedut oksigen dengan rakus buat mencuci darah agar bebas dari asid laktik. seorang lelaki, perut buncit dengan umbilicus terjojol ke bawah, berkaca mata bingkai emas, dengan rambut yang malu-malu untuk berwarna hitam, berbaju coklat jenama 'ayam kampung' tersenyum ke arahku. aku membalas dengan senyum kambing. kambing pun enggan mengaku jika melihat senyuman itu.

encik lelaki yang gatal, jika kamu tidak ada teman mahu menemani kamu berjalan, sila jangan ganggu aku.

encik lelaki yang gatal, sila jangan integorasi hal peribadi aku jika benar pun kamu seorang polis dahulu.

encik lelaki yang gatal, kamu bukan sedarah sedaging yang berbin jalil untuk melayakkan aku memanggil kau abang.

encik lelaki yang gatal, aku tidak perlu dan tidak ingin tahu hal salasilah keluarga kamu atau anak saudara kamu belajar di mana. tidak penting bagi aku.

encik lelaki yang gatal, sila hadkan aktiviti mengacau kamu kepada anak-anak dara orang kerana silap hari bulan, busuk jadinya. ini amaran keras. aku memang tidak cool.

p/s: sila kira berapa kali aku menggunakan 'hilang arah tuju' dan 'hilang hala tuju' di atas? itu pun kalau kamu tidak ada kerja dan sangat berkobar-kobar untuk scroll ke atas semula :D

yang geli-geleman,

jamieY

::'enthusiasm'ku hancur::

end of posting exam is just around the corner. OSCE. ask me how's my preparation going and you'll regret that you ever asked that question. maybe a question that i would like to hear now is " are you free on friday night after the exam? let's have a popcorn session! on me :) "

my posting in seberang jaya did not go well. it was, at least for the last semester. with enthusiastic tutors and helpful patients that rarely rejected us, i counted that as a bountiful bless. but, we were totally screwed this week because we had no surgical bedside teachings from monday to wednesday.

on monday, we were supposed to have a teaching with mr purple-headed and without any concrete reason or notification, he did not show up in the ward. our call diverted into his voicemail (i always love this idea when i want a bug-free life) and the nurses were clueless where exactly he is at that very moment. maaflah mr N, nampaknya jururawat itu terlalu sibuk untuk kisah akan hal kamu. senang cakap, kamu tidak di sayangi.

another story for mr I who refused to teach us because 'we showed no interest during his teaching' as he claimed. contradict as it might sound to us, who wake up long before dawn, driving all the way crossing the penang bridge, be in the ward by 8 am, clerking patients etc etc for the sake of knowledge. and on that very fine morning, he was simply blurted out that statement just because we left the ward for another teaching.

we were in dilemma upon leaving mr I. telan mati mak, luah mati bapak. di sini menanti, yang di sana menunggu. leaving him was not a good decision. but letting go another teaching while the tutor was waiting was also not a wise one. therefore, we were doing something that we thought is the best for that moment. i believe that we tried our best to ask mr I to have a teaching with us but to no avail.

nampaknya, orang berumur lingkungan umur 45 tahun bila merajuk, sangat susah untuk di pujuk. aku percaya gula-gula kapas pun tidak mampu meredakan amarahnya.

for this, i blamed my beloved college for a mixed up schedule.

we left nothing, but a bad impression.

yang tidak interested to mr I,

jamieY

::up, up UP!::

Go, go, go,

It's time to make a move and we both know,

It's time to step it up a notch,

I'm ready to lose touch,

Baby boy,

Go, go, go.

This is the crossing at the main intersection,

Up is where we go from here,

Finest selection,

This could take us anywhere,

I don't want protection,

Life is better of the line, ine, ine...

I'm ready for the lift up,

Keep steady beat,

'Cus I'm ready for the big jump,

Keep up with me,

If you lose me then you know, you're just a bit too slow,

I only go up, up.

I'm ready to be in control and the ground isn't good enough for me,

I know where to find what I want and I'm gonna keep on,

Keep on, up, up

No turns now,

We're going straight,

You better hold on tight,

'Cus if you fall you're on your own,

'Cus I'm gonna go on,

No, no, no turns now.

This is the final call for all destinations,

This is were you're in or out,

No hesitation, this is not the time for doubts,

Make your decision,

Are you on or off the line, ine, ine... ?

I'm ready for the lift up, keep steady beat,

'Cus I'm ready for the big jump, keep up with me,

If you lose me then you know, you're just a bit too slow,

I only go up, up.

I'm ready to be in control and the ground isn't good enough for me,

I know where to find what I want and I'm gonna keep on,

Keep on, up, up

This is the crossing at the main intersection,

Up is where we go from here,

Finest selection,

This could take us anywhere,

I don't want protection,

Life is better of the line, I, I...

(Ooh)

I'm ready for the lift up, keep steady beat,

'Cus I'm ready for the big jump, keep up with me,

If you lose me then you know, you're just a bit too slow,

I only go up, up.

I'm ready to be in control and the ground isn't good enough for me,

I know where to find what I want and I'm gonna keep on,

Keep on, up, up

::beautifully ugly::

ugly confession. ugly truth. ugly disappointment.

but, it's a beautiful blessing from allah.

i need a retail therapy. extravaganza one!

::favourite quotes::

him: abdominal pain that is relieved by farting....

tutor: in medical term, we use flatus.

lecturer: we are takking about penis now, you wanna join?

student: *slam the door and walk away*

either you are dumb, or the writer is dumb!

student: mak cik berak ada keluar hingus tak?

patient: *blur*

student: pak cik pernah ada TB?

patient: ada kat rumah..besar 29 inci

me: why u like to bully me?

her: because you are fat!

girl 1: kacak eh kuning ya

girl 2: ya la tek...kuning santan

girl 1: santan warna kuning?

girl 2: dush2

her: masalah anal-anal (sambil membaca iklan di tepi jalan raya)

us: *blur*

her: o masalah anai-anai. "I" macam "L"

us: ROTFL

::terima kasih::

terima kasih taiping,

terima kasih hari ini,

terima kasih kawan-kawan,

terima kasih.

::GLP::

satu tengah hari yang damai, tingkat satu acc building, berdirinya tiga orang pelajar perubatan mengelilingi seorang doktor yang sedia dikagumi.

Dr Y: what is GLP?

Me: Glucagon-like peptide.

Dr Y: and how does it work?

Me: it's a gut hormone. and it mimics insulin.

Dr Y: so you think it mimics insulin?

Me: tersipu-sipu. (rasa mahu terjun dari tingkat 7 sebab baru sahaja sebut it's glucagon-like peptide. duh! of course the action is reversal of insulin)

amaran keras: dilarang meniru kebodohan ini.sekian terima kasih.

::superiority complex::

Dear Ms S,

I hope this letter found you in pink of health (because, if not, maybe one of us has voodoo-ed you). i am writing you this letter to represent my whole group members to express our dissatisfaction over what you did to us this morning.

we woke up very early this morning, praying to God to bless our journey to school and we walked with eagerness at its peak, to ward A3 in hope that we would learn something from your department today. we were very happy to find that your MO's were doing a ward round and we walked towards them. we stand there, quietly, not to interrupt anything that was going on. but you know how "happy" we were when she jeling us and said this : i don't like this medical students. bla bla. to add salt to the wound, she spoke to her colleagues in Chinese language. but from the way she looked at us, i know she was bitch-mouthing us.

how hurt that could be? it was like our hearts being slashed hundred times. i would understand if she was having PMS or emotional instability. but is it our fault to be present in the ward? is it our fault not to be informed which doctor is taking us for that day? is that our fault no one told us what case should be clerked that day? is is our fault we are still students and still crawling in acquiring knowledge? is it our fault that **C sent us to your ward? is it our fault you are unhappy with us because you are unwilling to teach but were forced to?

we were still holding on, hoping that she would realize that she was a student too before, so she will treat us fairly. but she did not. she continued to ignore us. we were treated like a piece of shit. i am sorry, but that was what i exactly felt on that very moment.

then, you came in. our hope to be treated like a human being faded away when the first sentence that blurted out from your mouth was: how come there are so many medical students here? go to A3. don't disturb us!

OMG! that was like the sky was falling unto us. we are sorry that we are not as the same race as you that you would treat us nicely. yeah, as what you did to the attachment students. i am sorry that **C did not pay you enough money so that you would share your precious knowledge willingly. i am sorry that we were disturbing you because that was our responsibility to attend the ward round every morning.

for the ignorance, heartless attitude you showed us, we thank you. may God bestowed His bless over you and all of us. i know you are one of the best, and maybe, we did not meet your standard. but, we will never be without your guidance.

yours sincerely,

(medical student)

::because i love him::

aku berniat untuk post entri tentang "life is full of drama" beberapa hari lepas. draft sudah aku siapkan. namun, aku tidak rasa entri itu cukup menarik, melainkan hanyalah monolog dalaman aku yang dikupas dalam bentuk e-diari. sudah menjadi trend, blog adalah diari peribadi yang merakamkan rasa tidak puas hati ataupun kesal etc etc. ranting mat saleh bilang.

tapi, kejadian hari ini aku rasa memiliki hak mutlak untuk aku rakamkan di sini. mungkin bisa menjadi teladan kepada semua. mungkin juga menjadi hiburan kepada mereka yang suka berceritera? mungkin. terlalu banyak kemungkinan yang pangkal kepastiannya masih samar-samar.

seperti kesamaran cinta pasangan yang aku temui pada 31 Julai lepas di wad 15. pagi itu kami berbual rancak dengan pasangan ini, mengorek sejarah perubatan si suami yang menghidapi Tuberculosis dan HIV. Tengah hari itu, sedang aku dan kawan-kawan melepaskan lelah di bench di luar wad, si isteri menegur kami.

"oh how nice. young doctors, wearing scarves and always smile" dia memuji kami.tersipu-sipu kami mengalahkan kerang busuk mendengar pujian sebegitu rupa.

"is that for your husband?" aku bertanya, tatkala melihatkan dua kuntum bunga yang baru di petik dari taman hospital. di petik secara haram barangkali.

"ya" dia menjawab ringkas.

"auw how sweet..." aku yang memang cepat tersentuh dengan lil things ni tersenyum lebar.

"because i love him" maka 'auw sweet' itu bertambah panjanglah intonasinya dan harakatnya.

tiba-tiba si isteri mundur setapak, dan menekup mulutnya. air mata mula berlinang. kami yang sibuk berbual hal remeh-temeh secara serentak terdiam. kaku. jarang sekali kami kami melihat pesakit mengalami emotional breakdown di depan mata. lagi pula, breaking bad news akan di ajar tahun hadapan, jadi kami tidak dapat recall kata-kata keramat pada saat genting seperti ini.

"he's going to die!" dia meluahkan apa yang terbuku di hatinya. air mata masih bergenang.

aku bingkas bangun dan cuba untuk menawarkan perkhidmatan kaunseling secara percuma. dia berlari meninggalkan kami.aku rasa rejected.rasa yang amat.

aku duduk semula. kami masih kaku. kemudian kami sambung berbual. masih lagi hal remeh temeh.

*********************************************************************

dan hari ini, 4 Ogos, si isteri datang lagi ke hospital. kali ini dia menyerang seorang House Officer (HO) dan memaksa beliau untuk mendengar keluhannya. keadaan di belakang tirai hingar-bingar. seperti orang bergaduh lagaknya. mendengarkan suara tangisan dan jeritan, kami yang berada di belakang tirai menjadi kurang senang. perasaan ingin tahu melonjak-lonjak. pesakit yang berada di sebelahku, juga hilang rasa takutnya untuk menjalani procedure yang akan aku cuba jaya sebentar lagi. lalu, pesakit itu berbisik kepadaku dengan perlahan

"dia (si isteri) tu pondan" aku tergelak besar mendengarkan jenaka pak cik itu. kerana sudah terlalu lama di hospital, pak cik ini sudah sebati dengan gosip liar yang berlaku di kalangan pesakit-pesakit dan ahli keluarga mereka nampaknya. tapi, dalam diam aku terpaksa bersetuju dengan kata-kata pak cik itu. si isteri memang kelihatan seperti pondan.

tidak lama kemudian, HO itu mendapatkan kami kerana dengan pengawasannya sahaja, aku boleh teruskan procedure itu. HO itu turut berkongsi gosip dengan kami.

"the wife killed the husband. they fled off yesterday and the husband suddenly die. she is a murderer"

serentak itu, kami terdiam. masing-masing berwajahkan tanda tanya. tentang pembunuhan itu. tentang kebolehan setiap individu di wad ini bergosip. tentang nasib malang pak cik itu. kasihan.

lewat petang itu juga, aku mendapat input lagi bahawa si isteri bukanlah isteri kepada si suami yang di bunuh. kes menjadi semakin kompleks bukan? siapa dia, masih menjadi tanda tanya. namun, walaupun dia bukanlah isteri sah kepada si arwah suami, namun dia pernah membuatkan aku tertipu tentang betapa dalamnya dia mencintai suaminya. tentang betapa sweetnya dia. ah naive sungguh aku kerana percaya. percaya kepada orang psycho. selepas ini, aku berjanji tidak akan memuji orang yang memetik bunga secara haram di hospital lagi. sumpah!

::Peminat Besar Hantu::

ya ya i am a big fan of Ghost, aired every Sunday on Tv8, 10pm. i just finished watching the last episode and i fell in love with all the songs. so i compiled everything here :)

Since the first episode, the twists here and there never failed me to ask for more. the songs, the story line (maybe some of them resembled Saw which the screening is banned in Malaysia) but, that not the only aspects that i looked for in this drama. being untypical Malay drama itself, i shall give two thumbs up for the cast of this drama. entertaining!

all videos are taken from here

::fantastic four?::

one week in fourth year, with all the demanding schedules, convinced me that i could go crazy in another 2 years time. this is just the beginning, and more is awaiting ahead. oh, im so optimistic :D

i am officially a fourth year student now. time flies very quickly. the night where my dear friends sent me to the airport to say goodbye before i flew to dublin, is like just happened last night. no, i am bluffing. with all the ups and downs of life in this four years time, i believe everyone around me is more matured now. i bet. a better person, a better person with values. i hope.

because i am so berbulu with someone who said A, instead, is doing B, without an apology or reasonable explanation. we are human beings, and we need to communicate to understand and to be understood. that's why we have neurons in our brain :)

sounded pissed off heh?

me,

jamieY

::a simple note::

congratulations to my dear friend, Dayang Irme Hafziany Awg Yusop for her wedding with her sweetheart, Awang Khairul Azmi @ Bats today.

wishing you all happiness in life together, all the patience to keep the bond stronger day by day, all the love in the world to keep you both alive, and my endless prayers for both of you :)

love,

jamieY

::semangat::

semangat setiakawan,

semangat menikam kawan,

semangat makan kerana stress, 

semangat yang hilang kerana penat yang amat,

semangat dengan konsep government slave,

semangat berjoli di hujung minggu, 

semangat memeriksa pesakit, 

semangat menghilangkan diri dari lecture hall tatkala tidak cukup tidur, 

semangat yang berada di kampung halaman dan enggan menemani aku di sini, 

semangat mahu berjimat tetapi overspent, 

semangat mencari cendol terbaik di penang,

semangat yang tidak teruja dengan peperiksaan, 

semangat ghost season 2, 

semangat melayari website airasia dan MAS dengan harapan harga tiket raya merudum,

semangat mendail nombor customer service MAS dan CIMB,

semangat merancang untuk ke genting highlands untuk adrenaline rush yang nyata,

semangat menyahcaskan saki-baki elektromagnet kamu,

semangat mahu menjadi ramping seperti 4 tahun lepas,

semangat belajar memandu,

semangat mengutuk talam dua muka,

semangat menyimpulkan kehidupan dalam tempoh dua bulan ini dengan "semangat"

::algebra kehidupan::

salam sayang,

alhamdulillah, berjaya mengharungi dua bulan putaran perubatan dan pembedahan (medical and surgical rotations). bersesuaian dengan namanya, memang terasa dunia berputar, lebih-lebih lagi mendengarkan beberapa nama pakar bedah yang sinonim dengan ketidakramahan dan hobi mereka yang suka menengking pelajar di dalam wad. 

jumaat lepas, tatkala semua jururawat jelita terkesima melihatkan aksi pakar bedah yang hampir-hampir melayangkan fail pesakit ke arahku, aku masih tersenyum. kawan-kawanku yang berada berhampiran kelihatan kaget. takut-takut fail itu benar-benar melayang. aku berdiri kaku. kalau di takdirkan aku masuk wad hari ini akibat pengsan terkena lontaran itu, aku rela. lagipun, pengalaman seperti ini tidak berlaku setiap hari. pesakit sendiri kelihatan terkejut. mujur, senyuman paling manis aku berikan kepada pakar bedah yang menjunjung sebiji bola rugby setiap hari (hari itu berwarna coklat, padan sekali dengan janggutnya yang berwarna putih keseluruhannya) nampaknya berjaya melembutkan hatinya lalu meletakkan fail itu semula. 

pengalaman di usir seperti ayam, dimarahi di khalayak ramai, berdiri selama 5 jam tanpa henti, di tengking tanpa belas kasihan seolah-olah mereka tidak pernah bergelar pelajar, telinga di jamu dengan kata-kata nista, semuanya sudah menjadi sebahagian dari aku. dalam sehari, sekurang-kurangnya aku akan menerima 3 rejections. semua itu telah mejadikan hati aku yang lembut dan penyayang kepada hati batu. heh!

tetapi, tidak semua yang aku lalui pahit-pahit belaka. aku bersyukur kerana tenaga pengajar di hospital seberang jaya semua baik-baik belaka. dan itu menjadikan aku sangat kagum kepada mereka. mereka jugalah yang mengubah perspektif aku bahawa pakar bedah tidak semuanya tidak berhati perut. paling manis, bertemu dengan doktor pakar kacak seperti pelakon korea yang mempunyai facebook dan seorang anak (erk perlukah?) tapi dia adalah kegilaan hampir separuh dari pelajar perempuan di kolej ini. haruskah mereka mengikut citarasa aku? cari doktor lain boleh kan? 

cukup sampai sini aku merepek hari ini. take care people!

::Happy Mother's Day::

di bawah atap zink separuh teguh dan separuh lagi berkarat, yang sepertinya malu-malu menaungi kelibat di bawahnya,

"mula-mula buang semua sisik. dua-dua belah. lepas tu baru buang semua sirip" terang si ibu.

"macam ni?"tanya si anak.

"ya. kasi bersih semua sisik tu. nda bagus di tengok anak dara buat kerja cincai*" tambah si ibu lagi. nyata, dia memang seorang yang mementingkan kesempurnaan dalam apa juga yang di lakukannya.

si anak tekun menyiang ikan tadi. teruja dengan satu kemahiran yang baru di pelajarinya, yang bakal menjadi bekalan sepanjang hayat. 

"bagian perut tu, buang semua isi. kasi hilang bau hanyir. baru cuci sampai bersih. dua kali" arah si ibu.

"siap!" sela si anak.

ilmu ini di perturunkan bertahun-tahun dulu. syukur, kerana hari ini aku tidak menangis di kala di suakan ikan untuk di siang atau terpinga-pinga tidak tahu yang mana harus di dahulukan, seperti yang diceritakan oleh seorang sahabatku. 

"jangan malu mau belajar. malu lagi kalau nda mau tanyak padahal nda tau" nasihat si ibu.

kenangan di atas ligat bermain semula di benakku tatkala sedang menyiang ikan di rumah sendiri, beribu batu terpisah dari ibu tersayang. homesick. 

ibuku tidak membekalkan aku dengan duit juta-juta mahupun pakaian serba mewah, tapi kemahiran hidup yang pastinya berguna untuk di aplikasikan dalam kehidupan seharian. dia mendidik aku untuk berdiri di kaki sendiri. im grateful for that. terima kasih ma..

selamat hari ibu all the way from pulau pinang to indonesia :)

cincai= tidak sempurna, semberonoh

with love,

si anak

::happy birthday!::

i know i have been abandoning you because of a hotter guy. i am sorry. even i missed your birthday. what a sux owner i am...

the main purpose of your existence is to record my daily life in the form of diaries. e-journal i would say. but, i was so in love with my work and you are no longer my priority. poor you. 

anyway, i would try to spend more time here. or if you got bored, do visit the other guy here.

happy birthday simpLy mE :)

tag tag

Last phone call
~ms inspector who thought i was inspector fazura. buat kesekian kalinya :D

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Last text message
~baki kredit untuk 014569**** pada 09/04/09 is rm **. 

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Last time you cried
~the moment i had to say goodbye before coming here. ya i know im cengeng. i just don't like goodbyes

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HAVE YOU EVER:

Dated someone twice
~no thanks

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Been cheated
~no la

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Kissed someone & regretted it
~ no again (lalalala boring~)

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Lost someone special
~my grannie

IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU:

Fallen out of love
~tidak. in love everyday :D

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Laughed until you cried
~we used to tease each other at home. my hommies are simply funny haha.and o yeah, my sis never fail to make me laugh each time they called

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Met someone who changed your life
~i think so :) new people means new experience...

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Found out someone was talking about you
~erm not sure. but who cares? i din use their money aite?

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How many people on your top friends do you know in real life?
~i know all of them. they are my sayangs

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How many kids do you want to have?
~4 can ka? hehe. 2 girls and 2 boys

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Do u have any pets?
~used to. now we have ikan laga only

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Do you want to change your name?
~jamelia just suits me best :D

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What time did you wake up today?
~6 am

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What were you doing at midnight last night?
~menjawab soalan sebanyak 9 muka surat (-.-)"

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Name something you cannot wait for?
~weekends!

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Last time you saw your father
~12th march 2009

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What's one thing you wish you could change
~the hot weather in penang

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What's getting on your nerves right now
~nothing. im okay :)

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Elementary/Primary School
~sk pasir putih for 6 years

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Middle/Secondary School
~smsld, kuhara, convent st ursula then mrsmkk

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Hair color
~red

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Long or short
~smpi betis :D

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Want kids?
~yes2

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Want to get married?
~haha tunggu N hantar rombongan :D

HAVE YOU EVER :

Kissed a stranger
~haha im still sane

Lost glasses/contacts
~ya. i dropped a contact once. satu hari cam cacat rasanya haih

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Ran away from home
~nope2. saya budak baik :D

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Broken someone's heart
~unintentionally. sorry.

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Been arrested

~nope. again, saya budak baik :D

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Cried when someone died
~close people, yes

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

Is there one person you want to be with right now?
~one only ka? i want to be with my whole family members :D

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Do you believe in God?
~astaga. mau kena petir ka nda percaya tuhan?

::soul-monkey::

Hi everyone,

it has been two months i abandoned this blog..i bet this will get worse looking at my schedule nowadays..i know N got bored looking at her name appeared everytime she clicked on the link, so i am writing something today :D

today is an important day (ehem2) so i would like to express it here...today is the launching for our new blog..yes OUR blog. i would like to thank N for her endless effort, editing and making a new template for the blog. i was surprised to look at the end product. she really did a good job! thanks babe!

so kindly visit this and please, get your bucket ready as you might throw up to see how vain we are! lol 

yang pelik dgn sesuatu,

jamieY

::happy birthday narimah nahalan!::

okay i was 2 hours late, but it's the thought that matters aite? (so later, i don't have to post anything, just think of it, thats enough hihi)

for my gorgeous, superliciously sexy narimah nahalan, a true and my other half, wishing you:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

i don't know how you gained a special place in my heart, but one thing that i am sure of is, you were there whenever i need someone to talk to. you never fail to listen and comfort me. and ironically, you can make me smile and laugh out loud even i was at the lowest. your sense of humor is a medication that will heal every cut, even-though it has a potential to re-bleed in the future. but no worries, i can always consult you if the cut is bleeding again :p. (please God, don't give her the idea to charge me for the consultation since i don't have much money now)

N,

masihkah kau ingat ketika kita mula-mula bertemu? jelingan maut yang aku selalu berikan kau dulu sebagai tanda protes tatkala aku lalu di hadapan kelasmu? lalu kau akan menjerit dari kelasmu : "kau ingat kau bagus betul?" 

ketahuilah bahawa jelingan maut itu bukan sembarangan orang yang dapat.maka, kau sangat bertuah kerana telah mendapat jelingan maut itu beberapa kali. lagi menggembirakan, ianya percuma! ya percuma! (sila sujud syukur) 

N,

masihkah kau ingat bagaimana persahabatan kita terjalin? aku sendiri kurang pasti, namun yang aku tahu kisahnya bermula di dewan selera MRSM. menjelang SPM, kita akan meluangkan masa bersama di DS untuk mengulangkaji pelajaran(1%), bergosip(80%),tidur (19%). tuhan sayangkan kita kerana semua pun lulus dengan cemerlang dengan usaha yang sedikit itu. berkat kita mengumpat itulah, terjalin satu ikatan yang utuh barangkali?

N,

masihkah kau ingat ketika menjelang bulan ramadhan, kita paling semangat keluar ke pekan putatan. memborong semua makanan di gerai-gerai bazar ramadhan kerana kita punya nafsu makan seperti kuda. habis makanan di borong, bilik GF-i-dont-remember-the-number akan menjadi port kita berbuka puasa beramai-ramai. orang yang tidak puasa akan melantak mengalahkan orang yang berpuasa. usai sahaja melahap, masing-masing akan tersandar di dinding seperti ular sawa bunting 9 bulan. 

N,

masihkah kau ingat bagaimana kita menghabiskan bulan peperiksaan SPM itu bersama? di kala malam sudah larut, dan neuron-neuron enggan untuk bekerja, maka berkumpullah kita membentuk kumpulan usrah yang kecil, di ketuai oleh naqibah-naqibah dayang papar. maka bermulalah sesi usrah kita iaitu carta lelaki terkacak di MRSM, dan pasangan terhangat semasa. mungkin juga cerita hantu paling menyeramkan sehingga meremang bulu ketiak? sungguh manis kenangan itu.

masihkan kau ingat kenangan ayam madu golek MRSM? seperti pencuri, kita berjaya menyelinap masuk ke DS pada tengahari jumaat di bulan ramadhan, di kala kaum adam sibuk menuju ke masjid bagi menunaikan solat jumaat. misi 1: berjaya! misi seterusnya adalah untuk membawa ayam madu kegemaran semua yang sedap hingga mahu tambah 5 kali ke aspuri. kita sedar diri, walaupun tidak berpuasa harus hormat kepada mereka yang berpuasa. maka kita mengambil keputusan untuk menikmati ayam itu di bilik masing-masing.

sekali lagi, seperti penyamun, kita terjengket-jengket keluar dari dewan selera supaya tiada siapa pun sedar bahawa kita telah berjaya menyeludup makan tengahari! malang sekali, khairul hamzah ketua darjah 5 topaz lalu di jambatan dan ternampak akan kelibat kita. dengan suara yang kurang merdu itu dia menjerit: "oi! nda puasa!"

kekalutan itu menyaksikan bagaimana ayam yang ku pegang erat gugur ke bumi. gugur bersama nafsu makanku untuk menjamah ayam itu dengan nikmat sekali di dorm nanti. kecewa. kau tergelak besar, aku turut tergelak. lalu berlari ke aspuri kerana khuatir lebih ramai akan menyaksikan insiden ayam madu golek itu. malu. kecewa. hampa. kempunan.

N,

masihkan ku ingat bagaimana kita mula-mula mendapat nama timangan masing-masing? kau nyetnyet dan aku chimpchimp. malam itu, di KML, kau menunjukkan buku biology yang ibunda kau belikan. di belakang buku itu terpampang gambar dua ekor monyet yang sangat comel sedang menikmati alam. lalu kau berkata" eh famousnya kau jamiey, dalam buku ni pun ada muka kau!" 

pantang di kenakan lalu aku menjawab" ya bha pulak. eh ko nda ingat kita sama2 panjat ni pokok ka and bergambar?" lalu gelaran nyetnyet dianugerahkan tanpa segan silunya kepada dirimu lalu aku mendapat chimpchimp kerana pengalaman tidak berapa manis dengan felani stefanzi cho.

N,

masihkah kau ingat kenangan kita melarikan diri dari wales-london heathrow-london stansted-berlin-munich-frankfurt-dublin-belfast-dublin? aku yakin jika kita terus-terusan berlari seperti itu, lemak-lemak yang ada sekarang ini pasti malu-malu untuk terus melebarkan luas permukaan di bahagian-bahagian yang tidak di ingini. satu, sebab makan tidak terjaga. dua, sebab kita pasti tidak mampu untuk membeli makanan dengan duit 60 pound yang selamat di dermakan dan juga kad kredit yang punya batas 600euro. sungguh miskin kita pada masa itu. nasib baiklah diriku masih waras lalu tidak menjual dirimu dengan pak cik bermain alat muzik ganjil di hadapan patung molly malone. kerana jika aku tidak waras pada masa itu, mungkin kau telah selamat menjadi ms-pemain-alat-muzik-ganjil dan aku pula selamat memiliki kasut prada dengan hasil jualan itu.

N,

sungguh panjang lebar aku recall semula kenangan yang kita pahat bersama dan kemengantukan pastinya sangat cemburu dengan kita. maka dengan ini, aku mahu tidur agar aku boleh membesar menjadi bayi yang sihat dan gemuk dan yang paling penting, memiliki otak yang baik untuk terus mengarang sesuatu di hari jadimu tahun hadapan insya-Allah.

silalah sujud syukur dan kenduri 7 hari 7 malam kerana kamu memiliki kawan seperti aku. jangan lupa jemput ya? kerana aku ingin sekali makan percuma di kenduri mu itu :)

akhir kalam, sampaikan ucapan terima kasih aku kepada ibu bapa kamu kerana melahirkan kamu 23 tahun lepas ( bukan umur sebenar kerana khuatir saham akan jatuh) kerana, dengan kelahiran kamu, aku di kurniakan kenangan pahit manis yang pastinya menjadikan aku lebih dewasa setiap hari. terima kasih kerana masih berada di sini. terima kasih atas kenangan yang kita telah dan akan kongsi bersama. 

aku sayang kamu.

yang manis,

jamieY

::happy CNY!::

A peek at what’s in store for this year.

At a glance
Lucky: Ox, Tiger, Rabbit, Dragon, Snake, Ram, Rooster, Dog, Pig
Not so lucky: Horse, Monkey, Rat

THE wheel of fortune changes every year. You could be down one year, on top of the world, the next. So what does the Year of the Earth Ox hold for the 12 Chinese zodiac signs? Feng shui master Wong Keen Ming clues you in:

Ox

This is your lucky year; everything is favourable. You’re probably the luckiest of the 12 Chinese zodiac signs. You’ll make significant progress in your career. Big money comes your way and you’ll enjoy good health.

Career: You have two important lucky stars. You could be promoted and can expect a windfall.

Love life: You’re not so lucky in love this year. The female Ox wants to bask in luxury, while the male Ox is in a foul mood. Relationships may turn cold.
Health: The Ox loves sports and healthy food, and rarely gets sick. In fact, the Ox will enjoy better health this year. The young Ox should not have too much of a good time lest he/she gets into trouble.

Take note: Remember the old Chinese saying: Never forget the hard times when you’re lucky.

Tiger

You have no lucky or unlucky stars. Work hard and you’ll be rewarded. It’s a year of changes; whether these are good or bad depends on you.

Career: You have more chances to go abroad this year. You’ll impress your clients and co-workers with your performance. Your boss will appreciate your efforts.

Love life: There’s a lonely star influencing you. Married Tigers may have little time to talk to their spouse, so there may be a communication breakdown. Single Tigers can hardly find any new love interest.

Health: Young Tigers will have a common health problem this year. Old Tigers should take good care of their health because of two unlucky stars.

Take note: It’s an average year – the outcome will depend on your attitude. Work hard and don’t miss good opportunities.

Rabbit

The Rabbit is more comfortable with the Pig (which symbolises endings) rather than the Rat (which is associated with new beginnings). You will enjoy good luck, especially in love. But the luck element is missing in health and wealth-related matters.

Career: You’ll meet a strong lucky star that will help you when you’re in trouble. You may make significant progress in your career, and may even get promoted. Be warned that several unlucky stars around you could create obstacles when you’re close to success. Although you’ll make more money this year, be wise in how you use it. It’s not a good year for speculative investments.

Love life: The Rabbit is gentle, talented in art, cares for his friends and makes people feel at ease. The single Rabbit can look forward to an abundance of opportunities. Married Rabbits will find family life is great fun.

Health: Your health is under the influence of an unlucky star, and you may get hurt in an accident. You’re often in a bad mood due to lack of sleep.

Take note: Have enough sleep. Be careful while driving or crossing the road. Focus on your career and love life.

Dragon

It’s a tough year. Three big lucky stars are hanging over you but lots of small unlucky stars are around you, too. Double your efforts to ward off negative elements and you’ll achieve success. With a strong will and hard work, you’ll have a great year.

Career: With strong lucky stars smiling on you, you’ll have success in elections, exams and promotions. However, matters involving documents and contracts may lend you in trouble. Beware of rumours and gossip-mongers.

Love life: The single Dragon will be lonely most of the time. The married Dragon is likely to spend nights alone as your spouse is often away.

Health: You cannot sleep well at night. During the day, you cannot concentrate on your work. Make sure you have ample rest.

Take note: You’re vulnerable to accidents this year, so be alert.

Snake

This is a favourable year because there’s a big lucky star smiling on you although there are also several small unlucky stars in the corner. You can make steady progress.

Career: Arguments with co-workers will slow work down. You may disappoint your boss. Your co-workers might fight with you for a promotion. You can count on your lucky star to help you when you’re in trouble.

Love life: You’ll meet lots of small obstacles. The married Snake will quarrel with his/her spouse. The single Snake will find new love interests. Seize the chance or it will slip away soon enough.

Health: You have an unlucky star influencing your health, and may suffer poor health. It’s not a good time to travel.

Take note: Try to control your desire to shop. Spend more time with your family and play more sports.

Horse

You may be the one with the worst luck among the 12 Chinese zodiac signs. You’ve no lucky star but lots of unlucky stars. Tread carefully.

Career : You may make major mistakes at work, so scrutinise contracts and agreements carefully. This is not a good year to make money. Avoid speculative investments.

Love life: The proud Horse does not want to get involved. The old Horse’s spouse is vulnerable to major illnesses. The single Horse may not meet his/her dream date.

Health: As you’re unlucky this year, avoid going to hospitals and funerals. Your health is not too good. You may not have energy left for anything unrelated to your job. Avoid unnecessary social events and take an extended rest instead.

Take note: If you have Ox friends, keep in touch with them as they could pass some good luck to you. Be cautious in everything you do, to avert disasters.

Ram

Generally, it’s a favourable year. You have three big lucky stars but several unlucky stars around you. So you can expect to face some obstacles on the road to success.

Career: This is the time for you to shine. Two lucky stars smile on your career. You should make significant progress and get promoted. Don’t be over-confident when you have achieved success. The salaried Ram may make more than sufficient money. It’s a good time for investments and new business ventures.

Love life: With the influence of two unlucky stars, the Ram is likely to have arguments with his/her love interest. But you get to know each other better and take your relationship to the next level.

Health: Watch out for signs of increased stress or burn-out. Take a good rest.

Take note: Although you may feel like a superhero, you’re definitely not one. Take precautions, like everyone else.

Monkey

This will be a challenging year as all the lucky stars around you are gone. You’re likely to face problems alone.

Career: With the lack of lucky stars, the Monkey can hardly make any significant progress. Although you’re willing to do your best, it’s hard to satisfy the boss. Someone who dislikes you will spread rumours and gossip about you. People around you may misunderstand you. This is not a good time to invest or begin new business ventures.

Love life: You enjoy good luck in matters of the heart. The married Monkey will enjoy a peaceful family life. The Monkey in love will be in for a good time. The single Monkey may find a new romantic interest, depending on his/her attitude.

Health: You’re vulnerable to illness as you’re under the influence of a strong unlucky star. You’re accident-prone too, so be more alert. While walking on the street, be careful of things falling from the sky, which may hurt you badly.

Take note: The Monkey must try to follow the rules. Your foes may want to hurt you; don’t let them.

Rooster

Opportunities await you this year. You should have good luck in career, romance and wealth. But you also have some unlucky stars.

Career: With three big lucky stars smiling on you, you should make significant progress in your career. You need not go out of your way to look for opportunities as they will come to you. If you do your best, you’ll achieve success. The Rooster loves luxury and works hard to procure a better life. A significant amount of money could come your way this year, perhaps an unexpected inheritance.

Love life: The married Rooster will enjoy a wonderful family life. The single Rooster should prepare to begin a new relationship. It’s a nice time for Roosters to get married and have a baby.

Health: If pregnant, the female Rooster must tread carefully. The male Rooster may have liver problems, so watch your health.

Take note: Talk less, work more.

Dog

You’ll enjoy good luck this year as you have two lucky stars. Your career and health should be fine. However, your career can drain you of energy.

Career: You’re likely to be promoted to a position of authority, owing to your loyalty to the company. However, you lack assistants to help you achieve greater success, and you need to work doubly hard.

Fortunately, the Dog is never afraid of hardship. With patience, success is possible. Meanwhile, you have two unlucky stars, so be cautious and abide by the rules.

Love life: The married Dog will find unconditional love within the family. The Dog in love may bring his/her relationship to a new level. The single Dog may find a new romantic interest.

Health: You should enjoy good health as long as you avoid stress-related issues.

Take note: Spend more time with your family. Be careful of being exploited or betrayed.

Pig

It’s an average year. You have a lucky star and several unlucky stars. You’re under the influence of the unlucky stars in the first half of the year. You may get off to a slow start, but the later part of the year will present better opportunities.

Career: You’re likely to get promoted. If you have your own business, chances are you could see an increase in sales or a decrease in debts. It’s not good to make speculative investments in the first half of the year. Do not gamble or buy lottery tickets. You must give up the habit of pursuing a luxurious lifestyle.

Love life: When it comes to love, you’ve the best luck among the 12 Chinese zodiac signs. Watch your step so you won’t be caught in the love trap.

The married Pig will enjoy a wonderful family life this year. The Pig in love will take his/her relationship to the next level. The single Pig has great opportunities to meet Mr/Miss Right.

Health: If you push yourself too hard in your money-making ventures, it could affect your health. You could fall sick or have an accident, especially if you’re involved in manual labour.

Take note: Get enough sleep.

Rat

You’re not as lucky as last year. There are several unlucky stars influencing the Rat. However, there are still eight favourable months ahead. Your luck in career and wealth is good, but not in love and health.

Career: You have a lucky star this year. Your boss will appreciate your talents and you will get the promotion you’ve been eyeing. But it won’t happen if you don’t fight for it. For merchants, bankers and sales people, you will make more than sufficient money.

Love life: Rats are not lucky in love this year. For married people, you’ll have frequent quarrels with your spouse. For those in love, it’s not a good time to push the existing relationship to the next level. Your love interest could have a change of heart. For singles, set aside some time for social life and you might find a new love interest, but do not expect things to develop rapidly.

Health: You’re vulnerable to accidents and diseases. Too much pressure and lack of sleep might lead to poor health. Go for an annual medical check-up.

Take note: Remember the old Chinese saying: Having good health is good luck.

taken from here